Story of a girl with swollen eyes

A girl woke up with swollen eyes, she cried herself to sleep last night. She didn't catch the reason why, nor nobody else. But she pretty much sure there are too many burden to endure in her life. She has an illness. That illness is just dire : she can't say no to anyone. People around her can always compel her to do something that she doesn't wanna do. She's forced to live with obligations that she shouldn't have. But stupidly, she always says yes. The word that makes people around her pleased but inside, she's desperately screaming.

That illness just can't be cured. That illness brings suffers in someone who have it, but joy for people around them. When you try to fight that illness, you'll feel guilty. Like everyone around you just hate you. In your eyes you'll see everyone starring and throwing a very unpleasant abhorrent gaze.

Beastly, there are few people(particularly boys) who dare to abuse that girl. People might say that girl is not very appealing. But few of her friends(the pretty girls) have this crazy-not-so-secret-admirer. And just like you guessed, that few beastly people(boys) who have the crazy-not-so-secret-crush asked her to talk her friend into going out with him. The illness started acting up. She really want to say no, she does. She really struggled hardly to do so. But she just can't face the unpleasant abhorrent gaze. It's not that the girl's not sincere enough to do her friends(boys) favors, but she already knew what would happen if she help 'em....

• First off, that few boys will make the girl with the illness feels happy and feels like she'll always have bestfriend to lean on. That few boys pretty much "pretend" to be nice, to be very caring just like that girl's own brother. Very nicely done illusion to present actually. But the thing is, the illusion in having someone care for her just makes her illness degenerate.

• Secondly, that few boys consult all their troubles to the girl. Especially all their troubles in getting that girl's friends(the pretty girls). The girl sincerely respond and do anything possible to help that few beastly boys. But the girl with the illness is not a very good moderator. so,

• Lastly, that few beastly boys don't get the girl's friends(the pretty girls), and they(the boys) can always find a way to disappear from the girl's life silently in a very smooth move.

And that's just shallow.

That's the reason she really wants to say no to that favor. At first she doesn't mind at all. She thinks she can let go of this illness smooth and easily. But nowadays that girl's freakin tired. She's tired of being pushed around. She's tired of loosing friends that doesn't really want to be her friend. She's tired of those shallow creatures who "pretend" to be her close-even-best-friend just took her for granted.

And there she goes, lonely. Her body is trembling. She doesn't hear anything but a repugnant fakers who keep asking her to do things she doesn't wanna do. Doesn't have non-faker-someone-close to lean on. Struggling to fight her illness, alone.
That just blows.

sorry for the confusing terrible post