my own hand-typing

Grateful

2010-03-29T21:45:00.001+07:00

absurd

2010-03-04T18:08:00.004+07:00

How's your life? mine? absurd
It's like a never ending routines, well whatever I'm not gonna whine, it doesn't even matter anyway

I've been cogitating for something I don't understand
some people say 'why?', some say 'why not?', and some say 'err I don't know, it's up to you'
well I'm the third one
I'm not assertive enough to decide something. It's like there's this two way path and I always bewilder and stuck in the middle of those. Nevertheless, I still have to and I did. I did choose, but from my record I always ended up at one path, but then all out of a sudden I have moved to the other path. And just small turbulence can make me move back to my old path. Even though I've struggled hard enough not to move, my body shivered and it went all blurry so I closed my eyes. And when I opened it, I've moved.
I know it sounded a bit superfluous, but it has been shackling my mind lately. Any thoughts?
well don't bother me anyway, I'm not really in predicament. I'm actually a bit happy these days, I don't know the reason why but I'm just h-a-p-p-y, well maybe it's because of *beep* :) (whoever *beep* is, you don't need to know :p)

well

2010-03-01T19:12:00.003+07:00

Remember when I said "I'll write more often?".................. yeaaah that didn't happen
It's not that I'm busy, it's just that I've just lost the spirit to write
The blog that I admires the most had stopped blogging (I think) so it's like I have no direction on blogging
I have nothing interesting to write, I have no poetic words to type (as if I ever have)
but I've just read this amazing post (in Indonesian), enjoy this!

"Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian bukanlah tokoh romantis yang dapat melukis seperti Jack Dawson dalam Titanic, maka itu kami tidak pernah minta kalian melukis wajah kami dengan indah, paling tidak saat kami minta kalian menggambar wajah kami , gambarlah, meskipun hasil akhirnya akan seperti Jayko adik perempuan Giant dalam film Doraemon, tapi kami tahu, kalian berusaha.

Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian bukan peramal seperti Dedi Corbuzier yang dapat menebak isi pikiran kami atau apa yang kami inginkan saat kami hanya terdiam dan memasang wajah bosan, tapi saat itu kami hanya ingin tau, sesabar apakah kalian menghadapi kami jika kami sedang sangat menyebalkan seperti itu, kami tidak minta kalian mampu menebak keinginan kami, setidaknya bersabarlah pada kami dengan terus bertanya “jadi sekarang maunya gimana?”

Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian bukanlah penyair sekaliber Kahlil Gibran atau yang mampu menceritakan kisah romantis seperti Shakespeare, maka itu kami pun tidak meminta kalian mengirimi kami puisi cinta berisi kalimat angan-angan nan indah setiap hari atau setiap minggu, tapi setidaknya mengertilah bahwa setelah menonton film korea yang amat romantis itu, kami sangat berandai-andai kekasih kami dapat melakukan yang sama, meskipun isi puisi tersebut tidak sebagus kahlil Gibran, kami akan sangat senang –sungguh– jika kalian mengirimkannya dengan tulus dan niat. (bahkan meskipun ujungnya terdapat “hehe, aneh ya?”, kami akan benar-benar melayang, tuan)

Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian tidaklah setampan Leonardo Dicaprio, tapi tolong mengertilah itu sama sekali bukan masalah bagi kami, saat kami memuja-muja pemuda seperti itu, itulah pujian dan pujaan, tapi hati kami sungguhnya telah terikat oleh kalian, tuan. Mungkin saat itu kami hanya ingin tau apa pendapat kalian jika kami jatuh cinta pada orang lain, semacam mengukur tingkat kecemburuan kalian.

Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian tidaklah semenakjubkan John Nash atau sebrillian Isaac Newton, namun kami sebenarnya sangat menghargai bantuan kecil dari kalian meskipun hanya membantu mencarikan artikel dari internet, kami ingin menunjukkan pada kalian bahwa kalian lebih kami percayakan daripada Newton atau Galileo.

Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian tidaklah segagah Achilles pada film Troy, maka itu kami tidak pernah minta kalian mengikuti program peng six-pack an tubuh atau kontes L-men. Namun dengan kalian berhenti dan tidak pernah merokok, kami sangat akan memilih kalian dari Achilles manapun. Menyuruh kalian berhenti merokok adalah untuk meyakinkan diri kami bahwa kalian lebih gagah dari Achilles (karena tentu kalian akan kalah beradu pedang dengan Achilles bukan?).

Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian bukan Pangeran denga kuda putih yang akan melawan naga demi kami, karena kami pun bukan putri tidurnya, dan maka dari itu kami tidak pernah minta kalian melawan preman pasar yang pernah menggoda kami waktu lalu, tapi setidaknya, mengertilah tanpa kami harus minta, saat hujan lebat datang dan dirumah sedang mati lampu dan ayah ibu belum datang, kami hanya dapat mengandalkan kalian, maka itu temani kami walau hanya dengan sms dan telepon, karena menurut kami, berbincang dengan kalian adalah melegakan, maka itu jangan tradeoff (tukar) keadaan seperti itu dengan Game PES 2010 terbaru kalian itu (sangat mengesalkan! )

Kami, para wanita sungguh sebenarnya tau bahwa kalian bukanlah bayi yang harus diingatkan hal ini dan itu setiap waktunya, tapi mengertilah bahwa kami sangat merisaukan anda, kenapa kami mengingatkan kalian makan atau sembahyang, itu karena tepat saat itu, kami baru saja hendak makan atau sembahyang, maka itu saat kalian bertanya kembali atau mengingatkan kembali, kami akan jawab “iya, bentar lagi nih”

Kami, para wanita tau kalian bukanlah Romi Rafael yang pandai menyulap saputangan menjadi bunga, maka itu kami tidak pernah meminta hal hal semacam itu, namun mengertilah bahwa melihat bunga rose di pinggiran jalan itu menggoda hati kami, bahkan meski kami tidak suka bunga, pemberian kalian akan menjadi hal yang kami sukai, karena kami sebenarnya hanya sangat ingin menyimpan kalian saat itu, setelah malam kalian antar kami pulang, namun kami tahu kita harus berpisah saat itu.

Kami, para wanita tau kalian bukanlah Mr. Bean yang dapat membuat kami tertawa terbahak saat sedang bosan, maka itu jangan coba-coba menjadi juru selamat untuk mencoba membuat kami tertawa saat itu, karena kami tau kalian tidak mampu sekocak Mr. Bean dan malah hanya akan memperkeruh suasana, yang kami inginkan saat itu hanyalah memastikan kalian ada disamping kami saat masa-masa sulit meski hanya dengan senyuman menenangkan.

Kami, para wanita juga tau kalian bukanlah pemuda seperti Edward Cullen yang akan segera datang dengan Volvo saat kami diganggu oleh preman jalanan, namun setidaknya, pastikan kami aman bersama kalian saat itu dengan tidak membawa kami pulang terlalu larut dan mengantarkan kami sampai depan pintu rumah dan bertemu ayah ibu, (jangan hanya sampai depan gang, hey, tuan!)

Kami, para wanita tau kalian tidak akan bisa seperti ibu kami yang dapat menghentikan tangisan kami, namun tolong mengerti, saat kami menangis dihadapanmu, kami bukan sedang ingin dihentikan tangisannya, justru kami sangat ingin kalian dihadapan kami menampung berapa banyak air mata yang kami punya, atau sekedar melihat apa reaksi kalian melihat kami yang –menurut kami- akan terlihat jelek saat menangis

Kami, para wanita tau juga sebenarnya, bahwa kalian tidak akan punya jawaban yang benar atas pertanyaan, “aku gendut ya?”, kami sungguh tau, tapi saat itu kami hanya ingin tau, apa pendapat kalian tentang kami yang pagi tadi baru bercermin dan sedang merasa tidak secantik Kristen Stewart.

Kami tau, kalian adalah makhluk bodoh yang tidak peka dan terlalu lugu untuk percaya pada setiap hal yang kami katakan, tapi mengertilah bahwa saat kalian bertanya “baik-baik aja?” dan kami jawab “iya, aku baik-baik aja” itu adalah bahasa kami untuk menyatakan keadaan kami yang sedang tidak baik namun kami masih menganggap kalian adalah malaikat penyelamat yang mampu mengatasi ketidak-baik- baikan kami saat itu tanpa kami beritau, (tentu mestinya kalian sadari jika kami memang benar sedang baik-baik saja kami akan menambahkan perkataan seperti “iya aku baik-baik aja, malah tadi aku di kampus ketemu dengan dosen yang itu lho….*bla.bla. bla”)

Iya, kami sepertinya tau apa yang kalian pikirkan tentang kami yang begitu merepotkan. Tapi begitulah kami, akan selalu merepotkan kalian, tuan. Hal ini bukan sesuatu yang kami banggakan, namun inilah bahasa kami untuk mempercayakan hati kami pada kalian, jika kalian bukanlah pemuda yang kami percayakan dan kami butuhkan, tentu saja yang kami repotkan dan persulitkan bukan kalian. Kami makhluk yang amat perasa dan gampang merasa “tidak enak”. Kami enggan merepotkan “orang lain”.

Jika kami merepotkan dan menyusahkan, berarti kami menganggap anda bukanlah orang lain, tuan.

Kami tidak senang bermain-main, tuan pemuda. Maka tolong jaga hati yang kami percayakan ini. Kami mungkin mudah berbesar hati atau “geer”, tapi sekali kami menaruh hati kami pada satu pemuda, butuh waktu yang lebih lama dari menemukan lampu bohlam untuk menghilangkannya (bukan melupakan).

Kami akan sulit menerima hati baru setelah itu, karena kami harus membiasakan diri lagi. Padahal kami sudah terbiasa dengan anda, terbiasa melakukan semuanya dengan anda. Maka tolong, mengertilah tuan. Karena kami, wanita sungguh sangat tau sebenarnya kalian, pemuda, dapat mengatasi semua tingkah kami yang merepotkan ini."

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I-don't-care

2010-02-12T19:36:00.004+07:00

I haven't blog for like months? And it felt sucked, my writting skill was ruined. So I decided I'll write more often.
Life's so so. Nothing really special. Except the fact that I hate my brother even more and more each day. And sometimes I felt like some people in my life don't have any respect for me. It's not that I'm craving for respect. I don't. I just want them to at least cherish me as a human being too.
And for one of you, please, don't be such a stuck-up little person. You didn't do it by yourself, so don't take credit for it.
And for some group of people, if you don't want me to know what is going on inside that structure, then just count me out from the beginning. Don't blame me for not knowing anything, I've tried to ask, so so so many times, but you never told me what was going on, and you never actually listened to me. How many times a week I grumbled myself? Don't you realize how upset I am? Anyway, I-don't-care.

I wanna know you

2009-12-28T22:51:00.003+07:00

When I saw you over there
I didn't mean to stare
But my mind was everywhere I wanna know you...

...I wanna go there where you go
I wanna find out what you know...

...You smile never shout
You stand out in a crowd
You make the best of every situation
Correct me if I'm wrong
You're fragile and you're strong
A beautiful and perfect combination...

I wanna know you - miley&archie

this is not pleasant, this is my period effect

2009-12-18T12:34:00.006+07:00

Well well well, I'm getting a little bit emotional these days, and trust me it's really not pleasant having everyone around you makes you feel even worse.
Have you ever feel like you're mad at someone but you know you don't have any rights to be mad at that someone? Like it's some sort of iron or steel that hit you with no one throwing it at you?
yeah that's stink. And lately I've been having this emotion crank all the time.

I've been ignored by one of my closest friend(I think) which she do so because she thinks she has the important spot at one-of-the-so-called-organization. And she just do stuffs which I can't believe she did, like never actually listen to me at a meeting or somewhat at the organization. At that meeting we're all making a circle where she sits right in front of me deliberately and I couldn't hear what the meeting is about. What a mean brujas. And now she has this new friend which act like some puta, and that makes them perras puta.

And someone who supposed to give me driving lessons can't make it during this holiday, she can make it when my school has started, what does she expect? I learn how to drive in school months? hell no my parents will get furious.

And I just realize that this whole time this world has been really twisted. Why would people think that the outside reflect what's inside? They sounded like some bitches who don't know what's it like to be commented in a non good way.

I'm sorry this post is really not pleasant. And I don't really use the right grammar in this post because I'm too upset to even think, once again I'm sorry readers that this post is a disappointment.

I cried, do you?

2009-11-23T22:29:00.002+07:00

di balik kisah seorang "papa"

Biasanya, bagi seorang anak perempuan yang sudah dewasa, yang sedang bekerja diperantauan, yang ikut suaminya merantau di luar kota atau luar negeri, yang sedang bersekolah atau kuliah jauh dari kedua orang tuanya.....

Akan sering merasa kangen sekali dengan Mamanya.

Lalu bagaimana dengan Papa?

Mungkin karena Mama lebih sering menelepon untuk menanyakan keadaanmu setiap hari,

tapi tahukah kamu, jika ternyata Papa-lah yang mengingatkan Mama untuk menelponmu?

Mungkin dulu sewaktu kamu kecil, Mama-lah yang lebih sering mengajakmu bercerita atau berdongeng,

tapi tahukah kamu, bahwa sepulang Papa bekerja dan dengan wajah lelah Papa selalu menanyakan pada Mama tentang kabarmu dan apa yang kau lakukan seharian?

Pada saat dirimu masih seorang anak perempuan kecil......

Papa biasanya mengajari putri kecilnya naik sepeda.

Dan setelah Papa mengganggapmu bisa, Papa akan melepaskan roda bantu di sepedamu...

Kemudian Mama bilang : "Jangan dulu Papa, jangan dilepas dulu roda bantunya" ,

Mama takut putri manisnya terjatuh lalu terluka....

Tapi sadarkah kamu?

Bahwa Papa dengan yakin akan membiarkanmu, menatapmu, dan menjagamu mengayuh sepeda dengan seksama karena dia tahu putri kecilnya PASTI BISA.

Pada saat kamu menangis merengek meminta boneka atau mainan yang baru, Mama menatapmu iba.

Tetapi Papa akan mengatakan dengan tegas : "Boleh, kita beli nanti, tapi tidak sekarang"

Tahukah kamu, Papa melakukan itu karena Papa tidak ingin kamu menjadi anak yang manja dengan semua tuntutan yang selalu dapat dipenuhi?

Saat kamu sakit pilek, Papa yang terlalu khawatir sampai kadang sedikit membentak dengan berkata :

"Sudah di bilang! kamu jangan minum air dingin!".

Berbeda dengan Mama yang memperhatikan dan menasihatimu dengan lembut.

Ketahuilah, saat itu Papa benar-benar mengkhawatirkan keadaanmu.

Ketika kamu sudah beranjak remaja....

Kamu mulai menuntut pada Papa untuk dapat izin keluar malam, dan Papa bersikap tegas dan mengatakan: "Tidak boleh!".

Tahukah kamu, bahwa Papa melakukan itu untuk menjagamu?

Karena bagi Papa, kamu adalah sesuatu yang sangat - sangat luar biasa berharga..

Setelah itu kamu marah pada Papa, dan masuk ke kamar sambil membanting pintu...

Dan yang datang mengetok pintu dan membujukmu agar tidak marah adalah Mama....

Tahukah kamu, bahwa saat itu Papa memejamkan matanya dan menahan gejolak dalam batinnya,

Bahwa Papa sangat ingin mengikuti keinginanmu, Tapi lagi-lagi dia HARUS menjagamu?

Ketika saat seorang cowok mulai sering menelponmu, atau bahkan datang ke rumah untuk menemuimu, Papa akan memasang wajah paling cool sedunia.... :')

Papa sesekali menguping atau mengintip saat kamu sedang ngobrol berdua di ruang tamu..

Sadarkah kamu, kalau hati Papa merasa cemburu?

Saat kamu mulai lebih dipercaya, dan Papa melonggarkan sedikit peraturan untuk keluar rumah untukmu, kamu akan memaksa untuk melanggar jam malamnya.

Maka yang dilakukan Papa adalah duduk di ruang tamu, dan menunggumu pulang dengan hati yang sangat khawatir...

Dan setelah perasaan khawatir itu berlarut - larut...

Ketika melihat putri kecilnya pulang larut malam hati Papa akan mengeras dan Papa memarahimu.. .

Sadarkah kamu, bahwa ini karena hal yang di sangat ditakuti Papa akan segera datang?

"Bahwa putri kecilnya akan segera pergi meninggalkan Papa"

Setelah lulus SMA, Papa akan sedikit memaksamu untuk menjadi seorang Dokter atau Insinyur.

Ketahuilah, bahwa seluruh paksaan yang dilakukan Papa itu semata - mata hanya karena memikirkan masa depanmu nanti...

Tapi toh Papa tetap tersenyum dan mendukungmu saat pilihanmu tidak sesuai dengan keinginan Papa

Ketika kamu menjadi gadis dewasa....

Dan kamu harus pergi kuliah dikota lain...

Papa harus melepasmu di bandara.

Tahukah kamu bahwa badan Papa terasa kaku untuk memelukmu?

Papa hanya tersenyum sambil memberi nasehat ini - itu, dan menyuruhmu untuk berhati-hati. .

Padahal Papa ingin sekali menangis seperti Mama dan memelukmu erat-erat.

Yang Papa lakukan hanya menghapus sedikit air mata di sudut matanya, dan menepuk pundakmu berkata "Jaga dirimu baik-baik ya sayang".

Papa melakukan itu semua agar kamu KUAT...kuat untuk pergi dan menjadi dewasa.

Disaat kamu butuh uang untuk membiayai uang semester dan kehidupanmu, orang pertama yang mengerutkan kening adalah Papa.

Papa pasti berusaha keras mencari jalan agar anaknya bisa merasa sama dengan teman-temannya yang lain.

Ketika permintaanmu bukan lagi sekedar meminta boneka baru, dan Papa tahu ia tidak bisa memberikan yang kamu inginkan...

Kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut Papa adalah : "Tidak.... Tidak bisa!"

Padahal dalam batin Papa, Ia sangat ingin mengatakan "Iya sayang, nanti Papa belikan untukmu".

Tahukah kamu bahwa pada saat itu Papa merasa gagal membuat anaknya tersenyum?

Saatnya kamu diwisuda sebagai seorang sarjana.

Papa adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan memberi tepuk tangan untukmu.

Papa akan tersenyum dengan bangga dan puas melihat "putri kecilnya yang tidak manja berhasil tumbuh dewasa, dan telah menjadi seseorang"

Sampai saat seorang teman Lelakimu datang ke rumah dan meminta izin pada Papa untuk mengambilmu darinya.

Papa akan sangat berhati-hati memberikan izin..

Karena Papa tahu.....

Bahwa lelaki itulah yang akan menggantikan posisinya nanti.

Dan akhirnya....

Saat Papa melihatmu duduk di Panggung Pelaminan bersama seseorang Lelaki yang di anggapnya pantas menggantikannya, Papa pun tersenyum bahagia....

Apakah kamu mengetahui, di hari yang bahagia itu Papa pergi kebelakang panggung sebentar, dan menangis?

Papa menangis karena papa sangat berbahagia, kemudian Papa berdoa....

Dalam lirih doanya kepada Tuhan, Papa berkata: "Ya Allah tugasku telah selesai dengan baik....

Putri kecilku yang lucu dan kucintai telah menjadi wanita yang cantik....

Bahagiakanlah ia bersama suaminya..."

Setelah itu Papa hanya bisa menunggu kedatanganmu bersama cucu-cucunya yang sesekali datang untuk menjenguk...

Dengan rambut yang telah dan semakin memutih....

Dan badan serta lengan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjagamu dari bahaya....

Papa telah menyelesaikan tugasnya....

Papa, Ayah, Bapak, atau Abah kita...

Adalah sosok yang harus selalu terlihat kuat...

Bahkan ketika dia tidak kuat untuk tidak menangis...

Dia harus terlihat tegas bahkan saat dia ingin memanjakanmu. .

Dan dia adalah yang orang pertama yang selalu yakin bahwa "KAMU BISA" dalam segala hal..

...............................
I cried, do you?

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Fell

2009-11-15T21:56:00.006+07:00

I'm sick of being alone

I'm ashamed of myself

I feel stupid that I fell for something that I shouldn't be fallen for

but I do know one thing
I'm strong and I know it, pain won't hurt me like yesterday did

RKPS

When the amphibia attacks

2009-11-09T17:53:00.003+07:00

sorry long time no post
got no mood, got no time so well yeah haha
my mid-semester report card went quite well, I got the 9th rank and my math physics biology and chemistry score is quite nice. Although I can't be happy, yet. I still have to fight hard for final exam on December, and I'm sooooo lazy to study.
Hmm well last week there was a runaway frog at my lovely class XI IPA H, everyone jumped to their table, some of the boys ran out of our class instantly, it was quite funny and exclaimed actually haha. And Diana bravely capture that frog. She was so cool hahaha.
oh I haven't tell you about tesis long long time ago, well the topic has expired soooo, sorry I'm too lazy to post it hahaha
well gotta do my assignments, cheerio

Perspective

2009-10-14T21:09:00.003+07:00

There's a situation where stars are not the thing you wished for
There's the time when you wish for something modest, something not too complicated
There's always something missing in your life, and stars are not the proper thing to fill the spot

Sometimes, you need a one-person-to-rely-on
Someone who doesn't really get you all the time, but realizes when something's wrong about you in a very quick gaze
Someone who never knows what wise-enough-stuffs-to-say when you're consulting your problems, but can always make you realizes there's still a shed of light to see

It doesn't really matter if that one person commented something really-unbelievably-sarcastic on you that it makes you wanna got hit by a truck
If it's the way that person show how he/she cares about you, then that's it
The point is that person care

Better than people who hide behind some lie about caring-for-us
They pretend, oh boy they pretend real real good
But when you're down, you need something more than people around you feel sorry for you
You don't need people who say with their mouth that they got your back no matter what when all that is a big fat lie
When all that is just to use you for their own business, they shouldn't really bother saying anything

You'll need someone who truthfully say with their heart, "I'll always be there for you"
That someone doesn't need a mouth to say it
That person can show you that he/she will always be there for you

Favor Person

2009-10-13T20:48:00.003+07:00

Yesterday, few things happened to me. So many tragedies that merely turn my head crying to sleep. People do favors one to another, but should it be continuous all the time? Lunatic person don't know what's around them. What other people need and what other people care. I am not lunatic. I do care what other people need, I do try to help them. But they just can't discover the truth, they keep opposing the truth. The truth make 'em become obsessed and overbearing. Sometimes it just makes them a two-faced-god-damned bastard. The thing that makes it harder is when you're suddenly the filling of a friends-for-favors-only sandwich. Meet the bread. It looks delicious from the outside, boy the texture is so like heaven, smells so great it could make you fly to the air. But once it goes down your throat, it'll make you choke hard and harder each day. Right now I'm telling you I ain't kidding. The choking hurts so bad, seems like the bread is dunking your head right into the toilet right at that moment.
It hurts, a lot.

Story of a girl with swollen eyes

2009-10-02T19:19:00.003+07:00

A girl woke up with swollen eyes, she cried herself to sleep last night. She didn't catch the reason why, nor nobody else. But she pretty much sure there are too many burden to endure in her life. She has an illness. That illness is just dire : she can't say no to anyone. People around her can always compel her to do something that she doesn't wanna do. She's forced to live with obligations that she shouldn't have. But stupidly, she always says yes. The word that makes people around her pleased but inside, she's desperately screaming.

That illness just can't be cured. That illness brings suffers in someone who have it, but joy for people around them. When you try to fight that illness, you'll feel guilty. Like everyone around you just hate you. In your eyes you'll see everyone starring and throwing a very unpleasant abhorrent gaze.

Beastly, there are few people(particularly boys) who dare to abuse that girl. People might say that girl is not very appealing. But few of her friends(the pretty girls) have this crazy-not-so-secret-admirer. And just like you guessed, that few beastly people(boys) who have the crazy-not-so-secret-crush asked her to talk her friend into going out with him. The illness started acting up. She really want to say no, she does. She really struggled hardly to do so. But she just can't face the unpleasant abhorrent gaze. It's not that the girl's not sincere enough to do her friends(boys) favors, but she already knew what would happen if she help 'em....

First off, that few boys will make the girl with the illness feels happy and feels like she'll always have bestfriend to lean on. That few boys pretty much "pretend" to be nice, to be very caring just like that girl's own brother. Very nicely done illusion to present actually. But the thing is, the illusion in having someone care for her just makes her illness degenerate.

Secondly, that few boys consult all their troubles to the girl. Especially all their troubles in getting that girl's friends(the pretty girls). The girl sincerely respond and do anything possible to help that few beastly boys. But the girl with the illness is not a very good moderator. so,

Lastly, that few beastly boys don't get the girl's friends(the pretty girls), and they(the boys) can always find a way to disappear from the girl's life silently in a very smooth move.

And that's just shallow.

That's the reason she really wants to say no to that favor. At first she doesn't mind at all. She thinks she can let go of this illness smooth and easily. But nowadays that girl's freakin tired. She's tired of being pushed around. She's tired of loosing friends that doesn't really want to be her friend. She's tired of those shallow creatures who "pretend" to be her close-even-best-friend just took her for granted.

And there she goes, lonely. Her body is trembling. She doesn't hear anything but a repugnant fakers who keep asking her to do things she doesn't wanna do. Doesn't have non-faker-someone-close to lean on. Struggling to fight her illness, alone.
That just blows.

sorry for the confusing terrible post

school?

2009-10-01T09:55:00.004+07:00

Woke up this morning at 5 am, imagined already that today's gonna be worse. How could it not be? It's the first day of school for god sake. Arrived at school at 5.52 and headed toward the stairs. Before I ascended the stairs I met Pras. And the first thing he asked me was "hey did you study during the holiday for the midterm? what's the homework for today, any test?" and I was like "oh my god it's just the first day of school, geez". And what's on my mind was "oh god, the every-school-day-routines has started already?". I know I know in less than 4 days we'll face our goddamned midterm week, but can't we just take 5 seconds breathe before we work our butts off for the midterm?

Anyway, back to the story, well it's not a story it's a nonevent actually. We arrived at our lovely class XI IPA H. Then came Kevin, Cici and Ishi. Cici told us that maybe we'll go home early today. He asked one of our school's employee and got the information that we'll go home at 9 am. I felt so delighted. Then came Khaula. She heard about the glorious-story and she's so excited too. And then many of my class member came and suddenly they started writting. I wonder what they're doing, so Khaula asked people around us, and guess what. They did mathematics homework, golly gee what a good grief. Thank God I did that homework few weeks ago so I can sit back and relax. Everyone was so busy at that moment.

The bell rang, and Mrs. Tati came to our class. We all felt bewildered because Mrs. Tati wasn't our class teacher. And she took the attendance and she mention that we all have to go to the field, and shake our hands one to another in order to say sorry for all the sins that we have done. We were all so excited and regreted going to school today.
The handshake only took 30 minutes, and the school told us to go home. Right, go home, that's all. It's a miracle that 8 Senior High let us go. Usualy after handshake we go back to our class and study as usual. It really is a miracle. I can't believe I woke up at 5 am just for this. 30 minutes at school, oh what a joy.

Happy birthday my ex-chairmate woohoooowww

2009-09-30T02:06:00.003+07:00

her face is elastic, she loves to jape, she's shrewd, guess what? it's her bornday! wiwiwiwiw
who's she anyway? might as well see for yourself

(clue : it's her on the left side)

now isn't she adorable?

full name : Hasya Amana Riyanto Sofyan Sutan Ponda.....(I can't remember the last one hahaha)
nick name : elastic face, well just go by Hasya these days
birth : 30 September 1993
super-power : memorizing words, lots and lots of words
achievements : 4 times national elastic-face competition winner, 5 times national shrill-voiced championship winner

She was my friend at elementary, and we got seperated by 5 years, and we met again at 8 Senior High. And unluckily she had to face 6 months of burden in being my chairmate. She had to face my tendency rambling for 6 months, can you imagine?

well I got nothin more to say, just
HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY MY DEAR HASYAAAAA, WISH YOU ALL THE VERY BEST

sincerely, Ratih

cutest teeth ever

2009-09-27T14:12:00.004+07:00

you know what, you MUST SEE THIS!

god aren't they the cutest?
grab the adventures of ickle and Lardee here
I don't know who he/she is(the writer), I got the link from my junior high friend, and when I opened it, I was like aww this is the best and cutest pictures ever---~~ I guarantee you will receive a breath taking kids-story-kind when you open the link
try it!

waste

2009-09-27T12:54:00.004+07:00

Nothing excites me nowadays. In fact things seems to be boring these days. That's why you just see boring posts like this one. I suppose I should study for the dire-mid-term-weeks thingy, but it just does not feel right to study at holidays. I go online, and watch movies everyday. I actually won the all time movie marathon award ye know haha. Well perhaps I'm hitting the physics and chemistry later on.
ugh I really got nothing to write about. don't worry soon or later I'll delete this garbage post.

bukpus dimanamana

2009-09-14T21:05:00.018+07:00

ya makin deket lebaran makin banyak acara bukpus bareng which means makin jarang solat tarawih di masjid -_______- huahahaha tp seru siiiih

bukpus 1 : XI IPA H
yang ini seru abis anak XI IPA H gaul gaul fotonya ada 130an lebih wuihihihi sabi kan tuh XI IPA H emang KOMPAK (Y)
cowok2 XI IPA H tiba2 jadi artis dadakan, semua minta foto ya sama cici lah sama hanifi sama pras wah rame deh pokoknya, terus makannya pake sop buah ENAK BUNGUT, risolnya cahyo MANTAP GAN, ayam lemes (oke ini sebenernya ayam keremes tapi gara2 keremesnya udah lembek gitu jadi gue namai ini ayam lemes) trs ada macem2 lagi ada puding buah gitu, ada kue apaa gitu, trs minumnya ada aqua dan teh kotak. terus kita yang dateng banyaaaak banget.
BUKPUS XI IPA H MEMANG PALING ASYIK!
ini dia foto2nya

the hungry omnivores hahaha

(entah kenapa di foto ini gue merasa muka gue mirip esther ASTAGHFIRULLOOOOH JANGAN SAMPEEEE)

yak ini adalah saat dimana cowok2 jadi badut ancol dadakan, semua cewek2 minta foto2 sama doi ahahahaha

with my dear chairmate khaula (aww) :D

THIS IS US!! yippieeee

snapshots by : Aldisa and Khaula's camera

bukpus selanjutnya (bukpus 2) adalah BUKPUS TATRAAAAAA yihiiiiyyy
bukpus tatra diselenggarakan di rumah afifah yang berlokasi di daerah cipinang. gue berangkat sama ayu dan putri dijemput mobil putri di rumah mutia trs pulang naik mobil fafa dianter sampai rumah. (gamodal? yak betul) hahahaha
dress code : white polite
bukpusnya seruuuu bangeeeeettt, tatra 2012 niat2 bangeeeet selamat yaaa tatra 2012 sayaaaang :D
mereka bikin pin tatra gitu lucu deeeh, trs bikin SPANDUK!!!! trs kameranya betebaran dimana2 fotonya ada banyak hahaha trs kita main tebak siapa aku seru deeeeh. ini foto yg bareng2nya aja yaaaaa

ini dia SPANDUKNYA niat banget kaaaan awww tatra 2012 maaci yaaaaa :)

hiyah yang ini pada belom siap hahaha

lihat di sebelah riri ada anak kecil, itu adeknya afifah yang bernama ama. dia didoktrin oleh riri buat bikin geng namanya "aloha girls" HAHAHA

yang ini lagi main tebak siapa aku! asik deh hahaha

(Y)

ini dia tatra SMAN 8 :D love you all

snapshots by : tatra 2012's cameras

bukpus 3 : HARI KELAHIRAN GUEEEE AWWW
jadi hari ini gue sore2 ke sekolah ngumpul sama teman2 xb, terus lanjut ke futcy
di futcy nontonin cowok2 main bola, buka puasa, solat aaaaand arum dan hasya tiba2 dateng membawakan gue kue coklat bertuliskan "HAPPY 15 BOLIS DAY" awwwwww love you all :)))
yah buat yang bertanya bolis itu apa tanya aja sama anak rohis oke? hahaha

it's me! the birthday girl huihihihi :D

yak bisa dilihat ini kuenya, betapa adorablenya arum dan hasya dengan menuliskan "Happy 15 BOLIS day" huihihihi but I love it :D

this is me making wish

okay confession time, gue gabisa memotong kue.................hahahahahaha jadi gue motong cuma formalitas doang, sisanya potong sendiri2 hahahahahah

sebenernya gue gak tega makan tulisan happy BOLIS day nya, tapi daripada meleleh yaaaa apa boleh buat hahahaha

nah mulai yang ini foto2nya di hokben

(sebenernya ada foto gue sama anak2 kecil yg gue paksa2 buat foto sama gue tp blm di upload, ntar gue tambahin ya hahahaha)

ini dia x-b!!!

snapshots by : Arum's camera

yaaaa that's all, had a blast with all of em huihihih LOVE YOU ALL MUAAAAH :D

15

2009-09-14T08:20:00.002+07:00

happy 15th birthday to me!!!! yippieeee
thank you for all of you who has congratulate me, aww you're all such a sweet people, love you mon frere :D I'm so very happy at this moment
and what'll make me happier is the fact that I'm going to spend my birthday with my X-B partner! yieeeeyyyy
and guess what
Alwina Putri Utami even made a post about me! gee she's such a sweetheart(seneng lo win?) huihihihi
click here to see it!

14

2009-09-13T23:39:00.000+07:00

as you see, this second I'm still 14 years old, and god I love the number 14, I was born at 14 september 1994 and yes in a few minutes I'll be 15 years old aww, I really love the number 14.
Well I hope this year will be better than last year :)

one disordered post for a "friend"

2009-09-08T21:51:00.004+07:00

We met in Junior High, we became friends, best friends. Now we're in High School, things doesn't seem to be the same. Some of the people try to be famous. And one of them, is you.
At first I used to look up to you. You're very mature and NOT trying to be one of those "you-know-what". And when we entered the eleventh grade things just doesn't seem right. Especially when I'm perceiving you....
you......
you changed
you never spin a yarn on me anymore.
If there's something wrong with you, everyone knows
everyone, except me.
And you know what's even "better"?
I know all the story about you from someone who is not you.
face it girl, we were best friend.
You all know the simplest-most-important-cliche thing for a best friend.............you share everything together.
Best friends should share happiness, burden, sorrow, trouble, sunshine, and many more...................together
And now I'm hearing all your trouble and happiness from someone else.
You don't want to share it with me anymore.
what's up girl? cat got your tongue and you can't talk about it with me?
I understand you want to be one of those "you-know-what", I mean who doesn't.
But kill everything do you have to be this nasty and obnoxious?
damn
I never thought I'd said all this stuffs to you, well as for the record you'll never read this one
cause actually you won't care.
I want things to be the way it used to. I want you to be my friend, again. But you chose not to. And I can do nothing about it. So guess it's official, we're not ~~best~~ friend anymore.

Sorry for this emotional and melancholy post. I'm so dejected.

this is what made my day yesterday

2009-09-06T20:00:00.004+07:00

yep just like what you see. Yesterday my brother came home from USA, and I gotta admit I was not so pleasant in welcoming him. I kept frowning and grumbling all the time. At first, yesterday was ~~not the most pleasant day~~ ever. Well well my family broke fasting together at penang bistro. I didn't talk much and kept frowning. Aaaaand here's where the big surprise went, we all arrived home my brother started giving the gifts. And he gave me this bag, and I opened it, and tadaaaaaaa here comes this orange 8 GB iPod. My lips turned from frown to grin hehehehehehe. I thank my brother so much. I never thought he'd be that nice hahaha, thank you bro, this really made my day :DDD

I named this iPod(temporarily) : nano-ranger, well actually I'm looking for something unique-er, any suggestions?

25 facts you might wanna (or already) know about me

2009-09-04T22:57:00.003+07:00

1. The name is Ratih Kemala Pertiwi Siahaan, and you can call me Ratih, please don't call me with kemala or tiwi or something else weird
2. My friends gave me so many nicknames such as : rarolly, bolis, WALNUT, bugsy, donut, polar bear etc. (you can ask me for the meaning of each nicknames haha)
3. I do love internet, a lot. Internet can always made my day.
4. I enjoy windows live messenger as a blather device better than yahoo messenger.
5. I tweet a lot these days.
6. I...can't....draw......... yep everytime in art class I was like giddy and footworn, and I felt like crying all the time haha
7. I prefer counting numbers much much better than memorizing words. In fact I hate memorizing words.
8. ~~My older brother is such a pain in the ass~~ not anymore, he's actually nice (sometimes) haha.
9. I do saman dancing at school.
10. Perhaps this is nuts but I do enjoy interfering with others works, if they ask me favor, I'll do it wholeheartedly until that favor is fulfilled hehe :D
11. I hate assignments cause it's not important and has nothing to do with knowledge.
12. Chemistry always had the biggest space on my mind when it comes to the test, luckily I passed the first formative test this month.
13. Fitri 'jenaka' helped me a lot with my physics and now I think that physics is not that hard, actually I love physics nowadays hihi :D
14. Still haven't figured out which major that I want for college.
15. I'm deadly afraid of bloods :o
16. My favorite dish is sushi. Perhaps I'm a lil bit addicted to it.
17. I only wear my glasses at class or at a movie.
18. I never enjoy watching scary movies such as ORPHAN, or something else that involves blood or ghosts.
19. I'm one year younger for my grade. Figured out that I'm gonna be 17 when I've entered college.
20. I don't like being alone.
21. I play the piano but I got no time to practice now so.........I'm dumb at it haha
22. I interpolate my verbs by reading people's blog.
23. My parents still monitor how and when I study and also all of my scores at school.
24. My parents usually eavesdrop me at phonecalls, and to be true I hate it, that's why maybe when some of you called me, I speak so soft and concise.
25. I often stay up late like today xoxoxo.

well well that's all I guess. My brother's coming home tomorrow, means..........no more staying up late going online cause he's plundering me everytime I use the internet, damn.

any comment about the 25 facts you might wanna (or already) know about me?

First Earthquake

2009-09-02T19:05:00.004+07:00

yak hari ini seperti yang orang orang ketahui : GEMPAAAAAA
tiap orang pasti punya ceritanya masing masing, cerita gue?

jadi seumur-umur gue belum pernah merasakan yang namanya gempa hingga tadi sore

gue ypm untuk teori seperti biasa, terus disuruh ngerjain soal lalalala not important, gue catet soalnya dulu kan terus tiba2 gue merasa 'kok geter ya?' tapi ya gue kira itu karena banyak anak-anak kecil di ypm yang pecicilan dan tidak bisa diam semua jadi ya gue diem aja
terus ijan ngomong ke gue 'gempa ya?'
terus tiba2 kakak2nya yang di depan dan anak2 kecil itu ngomong 'gempa ya?'
terus gue dengan santainya ngomong 'iya gempa' dan melanjutkan nyatet soal bagaikan gaada yang terjadi hahaha
padahal itu geternya udah kenceng, udah berasa satu ypm itu berjalan makanya jadi geter2 gitu, pada pusing, ijan panik 'GUE BELOM TOBAAAT'
dan gue baru sadar kalo geternya emang kenceng haha, terus gue juga jadi ikutan bilang gue belom tobat, tapi gue ketawa (?) akhirnya kakak yang didepan menyuruh kita keluar ruangan
keluarlah kita lalalala ngobrol-ngobrol heboh panjang lebar, abis gempa berenti kirain kita boleh pulang, eh taunya tetep disuruh les, yaampun kak gamau rugi amat hahaha -__________-

sepulang ypm gue masuk mobil, pas di jalan tiba-tiba hp gue bergetar dan layarnya bertuliskan
Syarif
calling

gue kira mau ngomongin gempa atau apa gitu yang berhubungan dengan gempa
ternyata...
S(syarif) : Assalamualaikum
R(gue) : Waalaikumsalam
S : teh lagi sibuk gak?
R : lagi di jalan, kenapa rip?
S : lo tau gak siapa ketua schoolympic taun blablabla(gue lupa hahah)
R : gatau hahaha
S : oooh gitu....hmmm.........ya makasih ya
R : iya
R : (sit there feel bewildered)
GAK NYAMBUUUUUUNG RIIIIIP HAHAHAHAHA, dimana mana lagi hot gempa dia ngomongin apa huakakakakakak

yeah well that's my story, how bout you?

some raw post about love

2009-08-31T23:13:00.005+07:00

it's 23:51. I'm supposed to hit the hay now, but the feelings not right
somehow I feel blossomed and delighted reminding what happened this whole month
that feeling just rising and rising when I read many quotations from web that really catches my attention. And here's one of 'em

"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone"
-Javan

it's true, I would really love to be something to someone. Especially when that someone is special for me :) And here's another one

"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love"
-Henri B. Stendhal

When someone special is around you and somehow gave you very small hope, somehow you'll feel something is coming. Something you never asked to come but when it came it feels beautiful and breath-taking and you'll feel like you're charmed by his charisma. Your day will be very special every time you interact with that someone. Even when you can only stare at him from a distance. You can't stop smiling every time you're about to meet him, you'll feel exited to wait around at school only to stare at him from a distance. You'll be blinded through all the bliss and ended up thinking and talking about him every free-period of your schedule. You'll ramble about him all the time. Many people think that it's queer. But so what? there's nothing wrong with that. You're happy, end of story. Nothing and no one can crack up that happiness :)

Maybe some problem like the the zero-possibility-to-be-with-him might make you feel like there's no chance available. But it's not a sin to be happy for a short-term at least rite?

You might as well feel the same, what do you think?

My Kind of Boy

2009-08-29T20:47:00.006+07:00

yow bloggo, I got nothing interesting these days, well only that my brother went to USA this morning to represent Microsoft Innovation Centre from UI, he's going to meet people from other country and blabla and I wish I could be like him too (aamin)

I got nothing to do until I found this hehe

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.

If you're a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"
If you're a girl - post this as "my kind of boy"

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
not really, but cute indeed :D

2. Smart?
this is the main point, should be bold and highlighted

3. Preferred age?
1 or 2 years older

4. Preferred height?
taller than me

5. How about sense of humor?
average, well I need someone to make me laugh occasionally

6. How about piercing?
big big NO

7. Accepts you for who you are?
indeed, totally

8. Pink hair?
what is it a cotton candy? oh no

9. Mushy or no?
not really

10. Thin or fat?
thin

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
white (just like my you-have-no-need-to-know) hahaha, but tanned is okay

12. Long hair or short hair?
not too short, not too long

13. Plastic or metal?
what?

14. Smells good?
surely

15. Smoker?
absolutely NO, I hate smoker, no offense

16. Drinker?
goodbye

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
fine

18. Muscular?
not really

19. Plays piano?
no, haha

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
guitar is okay

21. Plays violin?
no

22. Sings very good?
yea well it'd be nice :) but if he can't it doesn't really matter

23. Vain?
no thanks

24. With glasses?
yep, but only occasionally like I do

25. With braces?
doesn't matter

26. Shy type?
not too shy, but shy is cute HEHE

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
good boy :DDD

28. Active or passive?
passive

29. Tight or bomb?
huh?

30. Singer or dancer?
singer

31. Stunner?
emm no

32. Hiphop?
wth

33. Earrings?
nopedy no

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?

what the

35. Dimples?
YES YES just like my *you-have-no-need-to-know hahaha

36. Bookworm?
nice

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
love letter? is this 1999? haha via text message or phonecalls is much better

38. Playful?
a bit, but not really

39. Flirt?
depends

40. Poem writer?
not really

41. Serious?
yes

42. Campus crush?
no, I don't like someone who has too many fans, even if there's only 1 other fan than me, I'll chose to find another man with no disturbance

43. Painter?
yes

44. Religious?
yeeeeeees

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
not really

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
between those two

47. Speaks 20 languages?
ahahahah nice

48. Loyal or faithful?
faithful

49. Good kisser?
...........hmmm

50. Loves children?
yeap

XI IPA H

2009-08-19T21:23:00.006+07:00

wuets tumben ya judul postingan gue itu, intinya ipa h sekarang sudah lumayan mulai menyenangkan (biarpun sampai sekarang gue masih benci banget posisinya yang di lantai 3) tapi yaaah gap nya cepat sekali terhapuskan huaha yah lumayan lah seenggaknya
perlu bukti? ini dia bukti2 autentiknya

(oke di foto ini gue sadar kamera hem haha)

kompak ya kita :DDD

(snapshots by : Talita's Pocket Camera)

long time no post

2009-08-17T20:09:00.002+07:00

yowyowyow long time no post huh?
well I've been busy lately (whoa BUSY huh)
soooooo fasting month is like in 4/5 days, I'm so happy for it, why? cus in fasting month teachers let us get home early (:p)
and we could do the Tarawih pray and what it means we all moslem is staying up late (wonder why, but I really love staying up real real late) and SAHUR, means there are so many funny TV shows before the adzan Subuh rite?
aaaaand there are soooo many holidays we have (even tho in sma 8 the holiday is kinda short but, hey it's still holiday rite?)
wowowowow so excited about the staying-up-late part yieeyy
I love being in Ramadhan months :DDD

ypm hari ini

2009-07-29T18:50:00.002+07:00

heeeeey
gue mau banget cerita kejadian kocak yang gue alamin baru aja tadi
jadi kan tadi gue ypm, biasa lah tadi ujian dan gue gak belajar(ceritanya udah pinter teori)
terus ada ujian paduan suara ypm juga kaaan, dimana itu kelasnya isinya anak2 sd yang bernyanyi2 dengan semangatnya seakan2 paduan suara ypm adalah pelajaran matematika atau fisika
yaudah kan ujian teori gapenting blablabla

terus paduan suara nih
ujiannya nyanyi satu satu ke depan kelas kan
trs ada seorang anak cewek nyanyi, suaranya emang agak kecil sih, dan juga ada seorang anak cowok kecil bernama rafif, gue tebak umurnya sekitar 9/10 tahun
kurang lebih kejadiannya seperti ini

CK(cewek kecil) : nun ja uh di ujung jalan taman idaman terbentang luas (lagunya emang kayak begitu gue gak ngarang)
PJ (pak jamalus) : kedengeran gaaaaaak? (berteriak)
R(rafif) : kurang kedengeraaaaan (biasa lah anak kecil sok nyolot)
PJ : itu berarti kamuuu yang budeeeeeeeek (tereak)
R : (terdiam malu..........)
gue : NGAKAK GILA HAHAHAHAHAHA MAU NYOLOT TAPI GAGAL KALO GUE JADI DIA SIH GUE MALU HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA

terus ada lagi anak kecil rada cina2 gitu dan badannya kecil gitu
dia ngomong ke pak jamalus lagu apa yang mau dia nyanyiin, terus sama pak jamalus ditereakin "APAAAAAAAA?"(bukannya marah tapi gak kedengeran, tapi tereakannya menggelegar parah) kesiaaaaan anak kecil cina ituuuuuu hahahahahaha badannya kecil ditereakin sama pak jamalus yang suaranya menggelegar

trs satu lagi kejadiannya
kan yang duduk di belakang gue fabi dan ijan adalah cowok2 anak kecil
trs mereka kayak ngomongin bisik2 gitu kan
trs ada yang bilang 'kamu aja nanya kamu aja yang nanya' sambil nunjuk2 ke ijan
trs gue menengok dan berkata 'mau nanya apa ke ijan, sini gue tanyain'
daaaaaaaan lo tau apa yang ditanya oleh anak yang kira2 berumur 10 tahun itu
'dia udah me*s belom'
HAHAHAHA GUE LANGSUNG NGAKAK SAMBIL BILANG 'PARAH LO PARAH'
PARAH BANGET ANAK UMUR 10 TAUN NGOMONGINNYA AMPUN HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

yah jadi sekian cerita gue hari ini di ypm hahaha bego parah kocak si rafif dan sekelompok teman2nya yang kecil2 nan imut kayak gue itu hahahahahahaha

you'd want to know this

2009-07-26T19:12:00.002+07:00

There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two.

50 people watched very funny, tears-of laughter type movie.
50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie.
At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers.

They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine, salt water and not a great deal else.
However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body.

This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness/heartache experience.

Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears.
Is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?

No wonder men die earlier than women.
Cry your heart out when you are sad, lonely, alone, depressed,
and any other not-so-good emotion.
It's good for your health, apparently.

source : Kak nunu's blogspot

blissful is the theme of the day

2009-07-24T18:25:00.003+07:00

hari ini gue bahagia
kalian tau lah bedanya senang dan bahagia
bahagia itu lebih kepada breath-taking
and I felt that today

even though yesterday was a misty-eyed day for me, today I've just realize
I have all of em on my side
all my best friends from my junior high, my besties from X-B, my new best buds from XI IPA H, and even my crush that sat beside me today at the field and I saw my other crush so many times today (oops haha:)))
they're all awesome people
and I don't really care about the-one-I've-talked-on-the-previous-post, I still got all my best friends (and crushes) huahahahaha
can't stop smiling today :DDD
plus today we get to skip classes after the second break because of pocari sweat (commercial ad hahaha)
and thanks to pocari sweat, I can feel all those blissful and so much happiness :DDD
especially thank you for Allah that made me realize that even though I lost one-of-my-friend, I still got many of em that'll still love me no matter what
thank you for cheering me up from the desolation yesterday :DDDDDD
still can't stop smiling
is today the perfect day for me or what? :))))))))

emotional

2009-07-23T16:21:00.004+07:00

sebenarnya sekarang saya sedang kesal sama salah satu teman saya, atau lebih tepatnya mantan-teman-saya mungkin akan lebih enak kalau saya sebut dengan you-know-who saja, fyi dia perempuan
dulunya you-know-who ini hubungannya baik baik saja dengan saya, kami berteman biasa, lalu setelah menginjak bangku kelas xi ini, dia menjadi sombong
saya sebenarnya tidak punya masalah dengan itu
suka suka dia mau sombong atau baik sama saya
tapi sesombong2nya, orang seharusnya punya respect terhadap orang lain bukan? setidaknya terhadap manusia lain bukan?

seperti yang anda ketahui saya itu manusia

hari ini saya menyapa dia, dia diam dengan tatapan "apaan sih lo"
saya masih biasa saja, saya tidak perduli
lalu ada suatu hal yang ingin saya tanyakan, saya bertanyalah pada dia karena saya tau kalau dia tau apa jawabnya
ketika saya bertanya, dia diam
saya tarik2 bajunya (biasalah saya masih anak kecil tingkahnya)
lalu dia tidak menoleh dan bahkan ia seperti marah dengan nada "ssssss" dan kembali menatap saya dengan tatapan "apaan sih lo, siapa lo" seakan2 saya itu tidak ada di sampingnya dan sekalipun saya ada saya adalah sampah di mata dia

wajar, dia merasa dia sangat terkenal
padahal (maaf) dia sebenarnya bukan siapa siapa
dia adalah tipe orang yang habis-manis-sepah-dibuang-makan-teman-yang-lemah-sampai-dapat-yang-lebih-terkenal

saya benci makhluk seperti itu

saya masih manusia, manusia punya hak untuk dihargai oleh makhluk lainnya
saya tidak mengerti apakah dia manusia atau bukan
intinya

sekarang saya benci dia dan saya tidak tau apa saya bisa memaafkan dia atau tidak (kemungkinan terbesar dia tidak akan meminta maaf karena dia sudah terlalu sibuk dengan pikirannya yang merasa dia sangat terkenal)

P.S maaf atas postingan penuh kebencian ini, saya sangat benci dengan orang seperti itu

songs updates

2009-07-19T17:51:00.002+07:00

so you might as well realize that I added some new songs, you might as well love it hehe :))
it's a very tranquilizing songs(you can feel the calming effects), very-well-be-heard rythm and I really love the lyrics esp the song "happy"
and here's the list of the songs that I added :

1. Happy By Natasha Bedingfield
2. Pretty Please Feat. Cee-lo By Estelle
3. This Will Be By Natalie Cole
4. Colbie Caillat- Somethin Special

some of you would realize that all of it is the soundtrack of the movie Bride Wars
well just so you know that's my kinda music, I just love the background music of some movies, perhaps in the opening, or at the end of the movie or anywhere during the movie
it just has the soothing effect on me(of course the nice one not the panicking kind of sound haha)
guess that's all for now

cheerio

hahahahah gapenting

2009-07-18T18:01:00.001+07:00

no idea

2009-07-18T16:39:00.005+07:00

I know I know I have to post once in a while but
I had no idea what to type ye know
it's like I'm losing all o' my ideas, well perhaps of the new class
I don't know what to type about 'em
it's not that bad, but it's just doesn't seem so familiar, ye know the pre-class-union thing?
the first 1-3 months you'll say that you hate your class and you just wanna recur to your old class blah blah blah
but after all those things your class have been trough, you'll just say that you love your class and it's very fun and blah blah blah
why life just sounded like that like all the time?
whaddya think?

ratih

decades

2009-07-14T20:18:00.002+07:00

W-O-W
it's been like decades since I updated my last post hahahahaa
well I was too lazy to upload the photos of my trip, so yeah maybe later
I'm quite busy now ye know with school-has-started thing
and now I'm being placed at XI IPA H
well the school prescribe the classes randomly, and unluckily I got the 3rd floored one
well I hope it's not that bad, well not to offend somewhat but I don't really like the classes at the 3rd floor,
well to be forthright, I hate it
really really hate it
well yeah wish me luck for whatever in being an 11th grader -_______________-

Ratih

baaaack

2009-07-04T13:13:00.003+07:00

yow bloggers I'm back here now, but well I gotta go to mutia's house
me mutia ina sarah ayu 're goin to............ well we don't know yet, I suppose I should've get goin now but yet I'm waiting for my dad to grab a shower blah blah
it's been a while(well not a while, talk about almost a year) since we gathered together(by together I mean 5 of us)
so it's officially a girls day out! yippieeee :)))

P.S I'll tell you about my vacation to jogja later k?

be back at saturday:))

2009-06-29T17:53:00.008+07:00

heeeeeey guys I'm gonna miss yall for 5 days
I'm going out of town
I'm having this trip to yogya, but we(read:me mom and dad only)'re gonna pass cirebon and semarang first, and just so ye know, this is the most un-planned vacation trip I've ever had
unique? yeah not really
how bout you? how's yer vacation?

P.S : sorry for my fellow tatra huhu and my fellow 9-1 too dear:( I my mom's gonna kill me if I didn't go on this trip I'm so so so so sorry

Ratih

morning post

2009-06-29T08:38:00.002+07:00

I woke up at 6 am today
cause Putri xc called me and talked about saman competition and friends
after that I decided to eat my breakfast while watching dvd
then I thought of something
this whole year, I've learned a lot from xb
lots and lots of things which is not only about school's subject
you guys remember dramus and BBM?
yeah, even though at first we really really un-unified, but at last we actually worked together rite?
the times we worked for BBM at 'kosan diana', and when we practice for the drama musical at hasya's house and we munch off all of the available foods to be munch at hasya's house haha
and even the time we studied together, when nashir get to the front of the class to teach us maths haha (Y), and when insan be the teaching assistant of bu eri, and adil be called to solve physics problem by pak wicay, and when andi got called by the teachers all the time and talked about his hair hahahaha, and many more
and now I thought, if I were never placed at X-B, perhaps I cannot make it to IPA, you make my learning spirit to fire up again
thank you X-B, you've lightened up my days for 1 year straight
you've helped me solved all my problem
you're all the place for me to cry to, to laugh to, and to share many things to

ratih

addition

2009-06-27T19:35:00.004+07:00

tadi ada yang ketinggalan, kalian tau bu eri? wali kelas saya di xb
kan tadi bagi rapot, biasa lah mama saya bergosip dulu dengan wali kelas
lalu tiba2, bu eri berkata : 'bu, si Ratih kayak anak laki ya'
terus saya diceritai oleh mama, dan hanya terdiam.................................
EMANG SE PREMAN ITU YA GUE?
hahahahahahahaha gue masih ada sisi feminim nya kok hahaha

alhamdulillaaaaaah

2009-06-27T13:57:00.004+07:00

Thank God
I get a chance to make it to IPA yieeeyyy cheers for me!!! hahahahaha
thank you for all the prayers you guys've said to me
congrats for all of you too
love you all (L) :))

ratih

deg deg serrrr

2009-06-26T18:30:00.004+07:00

oke sekarang gue deg degan karena dalam hitungan jam my heaven or hell akan ditentukan
naik kelas dan ipa atau ips
gue maunya ipa, dan itu bukan karena kemakan omongan orang yang bilang ipa itu lebih baik dari ips, gajaman kali
justru gue merasa gue tidak pintar ips karena ips itu sangatlah susah
bayangkan, msti menghafal sekaligus menganalisis
berrrrrrrrrat bebannya
terus gue emang dari kecil lebih tertarik sama sesuatu berbau mekanis atau listrik dibandingkan hafalan, harus gue akui gue bukan penghafal yang baik
kalau disuruh memilih menghitung atau menghafal
gue akan memilih menghitung
gue suka ngutak ngatik barang yang rusak sehingga bisa berfungsi kembali
gue suka melihat mekanisme kerja suatu mesin
aduh folks doain gue naik kelas dan dapet ipa yaaa
amiiiiiiiiiin

ratih

strange conversations (2)

2009-06-25T19:42:00.002+07:00

heeeeeeeeeeeeeey
just had this strange conversation, again
but not with armedi this time
but with abi
I found his nickname really-makes-me-wanna-throw-up, its something somewhat biology or what
and fyi I don't like something to be memorized
I like counting and somewhat that has this connection to numbers better
much much much better
so here it is

ratih siahaan says:
sumpah nick lo membuat mual sekali
sudah mual dengan pelajaran
Limnaea auricularis says:
hahahahahahha
bagus kan ret
dp juga loch
ratih siahaan says:
sebenernya I can't tell what ur displaypic is, heheheh what is it?
Limnaea auricularis says:
Limnaea auricularis
ratih siahaan says:
paan tuh?
auricularis bukannya cacing?
limnaea bukannya ganggang?
apa sih
Limnaea auricularis says:
siput yang menguraikan metaserkaria
ratih siahaan says:
OOOOOOOOOOOOH YAAMPUN

terbukti kan gue ga bakat dalam bidang hafal menghafal
ngafal setaun, besoknya udah lupa
hemmmmmm

2009-06-24T19:04:00.003+07:00

the hero in me - emily osment

you know I use to hear a voice that said
trouble's comin' better stay in bed
then I even tried to run away
cuz I didn't even know my own strength

I was schocked, no I couldn't believe
my world rocked, it was news to me
when I looked in the mirror today
I looked back and I heard me say
I gotta own it
breathe it
live it like I mean it..

got the hero in me
it's all I wanna be
someone to rely on
looks good on TV
save the day
It's part of the routine
Out of my way, this is a job for me

i can fly if I just had the cape
x-ray vision will be cool one day
need the power come on feel the rush
you better look out for my 1,2, punch hey
now I got my own dreams to fill
new identity what a thrill
break it down gonna right the wrongs
in my mind I can hear my theme song
feel it
try it
no, I can't deny it

got the hero in me
it's all I wanna be
someone to rely on
looks good on TV
save the day
It's part of the routine
Out of my way, this is a job for me

I gotta own it
breathe it
live it like I mean it
feel it
try it
no, I can't deny it
In control, it's so good to go yeah
figured it out and it's time enough

got the hero in me
it's all I wanna be
someone to rely on
looks good on TV
save the day
It's part of the routine
Out of my way, this is a job for me

strange conversations

2009-06-24T12:45:00.004+07:00

so today I woke up, eat my breakfast, and go online
and here's the strange conversations

Armedi Harahap says:
hola, cómo estás?
ratih 'walnut' siahaan says:
bahasa spanyol ya?
(soktau)
Armedi Harahap says:
i realmente necesidad de ver de Transformers
Okidoki!
ratih 'walnut' siahaan says:
ha?
Armedi Harahap says:
donde es usted?
ratih 'walnut' siahaan says:
belajar darimana sih lo?
Armedi Harahap says:
Ratih, i hablar con usted niña!
ratih 'walnut' siahaan says:
okkkkkaaaaaayyyyy and I can't understand single word you're saying over here
Armedi Harahap says:
por qué no dicen nada?
Use a translatools
You can search in google
(dalam hati : oh iya bener juga....)

weiiirrdd
the moral from all this : use google translate when you're confused hahahaha

eso es todo, nos vemos más tarde!

this is only my opinion, no offence

2009-06-23T23:49:00.006+07:00

oh god I can't stand this sneezing-and-friends
can't believe how many tissues I've used
it's 00:08
naw naw gettin bored and somehow I don't feel like I wanna sleep now
sarip wants to tell me about his you-don't-need-to-know matters, and he ended up go offline out of sudden so I got nothin to do now
well how about moi opinion on something
on what?

how about on foods?
yeah I gotta confess I gotta some weight issue, but damn I ain't gonna burst down in cryin for my weights to come down
and guess what, I ate lot lot more than usual, but hey, my weights remain the same, it stucks at the same digits, I didn't get fat-er, my clothes just fit like it just used to be, so what's with it?

I remembered one time Miss Diah talked about one of her student that got thinner, and actually she got a bulimia trouble, so here's what I think

maybe some-who who has a weight issue will directly go on a diet program, exercise everyday like people-who-doesn't-have-more-important-issue-to-care-for, killin for help, suffer like going-to-die-tomorrow-if-the-weights-don't-come-down, stop eating like everything, counting calories all the time, said that EVERYTHING is full of fat and calories, eating with a so-non-proper-ways and guess what
that kinda people somehow bothers me
what're you chasin here? boys? popularity? became smarter?

1st : boys
what the hell, so cheesy, what you eat will never affects relationship matters, whether it's full of calories or not

2nd : brain-factor
even a dumb one will know weights has nothing to do with grades or somewhat knowledge

3rd : popularity
everyone knows there's no need in being super thin to reach popularity, come on life's too short for someone who doesn't enjoy it

so, eating some fat-calories foods has nothing to do with weights, it's about the proper ways to eat the foods, rite?
if any of you just got an eating-all-low-carbs-and-fats-every-day issue, no offence, it's just what I thought ya know, if you have a different opinion its okay, then have your own blog and write about it
peace out:D
(P.S : I wasn't reffering to one person while I wrote this, so don't be "GE ER" you know, I wrote this for all of the bulimia's people and friends and for those who had a not-so-nice-diet-program)

regretably

2009-06-23T18:08:00.002+07:00

yow bloggers
guess what
as in fact you can see something changes from my blog, oh wait what's with it? I don't remember anything but stupidly DELETE THE HTML FOR THE TEMPLATES AND ENDED UP CHANGED IT, I'm such a klutz damn
well the colors remain the same but the background, well I gotta say goodbye to it, I forgot to copy it and I can't find it anymore at pyzam
well well my own hand-typing, guess this is your faith
your faith to change
sorry dear readers for this technical mistakes, I hope you can still enjoy reading my blog with this kind of appearance :'(

cold

2009-06-23T14:01:00.003+07:00

hey, just catch a cold, uncomforting? yeah exactly
I can't stand being sick ya know
it's just bother all the time and it actually makes a mood-swing-for-my-day
but there's something that could cheer me up today
guess what
today I'm gonna be brother-bother-free yippieeeeee, he's in bandung rite now, idk for how long but
that means I can go online as long as I wanted no matter what hihi
miss him? yeah IDTS, sorry bro, but you're just ruinin my vacation for the past 5 days by monopoly-ing the internet here haha
okay bye for now:))

dadnapped

2009-06-22T20:13:00.004+07:00

hey sorry for the late post, well it's kinda 'basi' now to write about the stories at sushi-ya the past week, so you can find yourself reading it at fira's blog now hehehehe
so the subject rite now is dadnapped
well not that my dad is being napped or something haha, it's a movie by disney channel
I love it
I watched it yesterday and ended up watching it again today at disney channel hehehehe
david henrie and emily osment could make a good couple though :) they're so cute together
and the story's great, awesome, sweet, well kinda weird with the slime thing but I love the slime thing hahaha, you should watch it fellas :D
and here's some of the plot summary
Melissa has a bad case of sibling rivalry, only her competition is a fictional character in her father's best-selling novel about a teenage super spy. When her father is "dadnapped" by a group of overzealous fans, it's up to Melissa to help him by tapping her inner superhero.

and I got a great quote there too
"when you don't even try, you'll just wonder why" -Dadnapped

sorry for postponing

2009-06-17T21:32:00.003+07:00

guuuyyyss sorry I'm gonna have to postpone the post about what happenned today
cus now I'm in a middle of my movie marathon hehehe, and goddammit I haven't install the sims 3 yet duh, and guess why? because of my-what-so-ever-annoying-brother duuuhhhh
so see ya tomorrow guyssss

quick update at snapy

2009-06-17T14:58:00.005+07:00

finally I got The Sims 3 yippieeeee
there were many funny things happened today and I'll post it on the next post, cus right now, I'm at snapy in front of my ex-junior high -- smabel, well I'm waiting for my mom to pick me up to go to my piano course, talk about lazy-to-the-nub
THIS IS HOLIDAY, why can't the piano course just spare me some me-time for me
duh I don't know what to do right now, damn I'm not gonna open my facebook account here, it's just doesn't seem right opening my facebook account in yet what-so-called-as 'warnet'............................................. yeah I don't know either hehe
well that's all for now, see ya on the next post

kapaaaan kapaaaan

2009-06-16T19:55:00.002+07:00

kapaan gue dapet the sims 3 gue ampun deh ga sempet2 beli gara2 sibuk grr
oke postingan gapenting maaf deh

my niece

2009-06-14T20:23:00.002+07:00

friend you have to know tadi gue ke pejaten village, trs makan kan tuh, eeeeh ketemu temen sd gue, belakangan ini lagi sering banget deh ketemu temen lama, kemaren di ypm ketemu DORA!!! temen AECS gue dari sd sampe smp kelas 3 yaampuuun
trs abis itu gue temenin ponakan gue ke lantai atas dimana ada tempat main anak2
well, I enjoyed being there hehehe
asik sih mainannya perosotannya empuk terus enak gitu, trs seru ada kolam bola HAHAHAHAHA, asik gitu, well gue nyadar sih gue udah dewasa, tapi banyak juga kok orang2 dewasa yang ngemenin anaknya kesitu trs ikutan terjun ke kolam bolanya
ihiihi
trs ponakan gue dua duanya sangatlah aktif
alhaslil gue yang rebet dan capek sndiri
terus sblm pulang gue ke electro apaaa gitu pokoknya ngejual barang2 elektronik di penvil deh, abis itu beli J.Kool trs duduk sebentar nungguin kakak gue yang cowok mau beli vacum cleaner
dan disitu ada panggung, dan ponakan gue duaduanya dengan pdnya nari2 dan nyanyi2 panggung yang kosong itu, alhasil orang2 jd pada ngeliatin, tp hebat sih mereka hahaha bakat artisnya udah ada dari kecil hahahahahaha

so this IS holiday

2009-06-13T21:14:00.001+07:00

heeeeey today I went to school for saman practice, well I was practically late hehe
after practice me and Ina went to mutia's house
there we gossiping, foolin around, and did many things hahahaha
and then we go to sushi-ya, and went back to mutia's house, and foolin around some more haha
well we did nothing special, but this really feels like HOLIDAY

yieyy

2009-06-12T18:33:00.004+07:00

today, everything about studying is done for this month (I hope so)
so today I practiced some saman dancing, hihi I like the new routines though, hoah I hope the participant of LKS can go to the competition with us :DDD pleaseeee we can't change those routines anymore! please please please pretty please
haha, and tomorrow I'm gonna practice again, at 8 AM, 8 AM!!!! o my gosh it's so early, I really wanna spend my weekends sleeping and woke up at like 10 AM or something huaaaaaaah :'((((((
yeah whatev, this is what I've chose, this is what I gotta do rite? well that's for now bubye

still, not a lucky person

2009-06-10T20:51:00.003+07:00

hey yo folks (again)
somehow I felt that I'll be busy next weeks, with all the saman dance competition, and dealing with the politics, whew means gonna be a lot of work for all of us saman dancer hahaha
yeah I have no idea where or how I'll spend my holidays (which I haven't got cus of this make up test ugh)

and I wish syarif will be in a bunch better condition, he got this DBD, get well soon my friend :)

aww well I hope my parents won't get angry at me because there's this BIG probability that I'll spend few days of my holidays saman dancing, but what the hell I've done my sumative exam duh?
naw naw dealing with IT, it's not that hard, it's just.... well
I didn't study for the examination because of chemistry(which I ended up with the make up test tomorrow because of the CUMULATIVE DAMN)
wueheheheheheheheh
so I ended up doing the make up test tomorrow -_________-
seriously, I passed the chemistry's sumative test, but god damn it, because my previous test was not that good, I gotta do this make up test damn

well I'm not a bunch of lucky person, God knows that
if I didn't study, well then say goodbye
I still can't understand why there's such a lucky person, who got lucky in picking the answers and got no make up test damn
how'd they do that??????
if there's an extracourse in being lucky, I, forsure will take 'em
I realy wanna know how lucky people do their thing
they just do this 'cap-cip-cup' thing and actually got the right one, and if I did that?
boy I'll get the total wrong one @__@
that's why

I'm not a lucky person, am I?

trashing

2009-06-10T18:34:00.002+07:00

aduh lagi gatau mau cerita apa nih
lagi gaada yang seru
jadi gue trashing doang disini deh maaf deh ya jangan bosen ya baca blog gue ehehhe
jadi gue buka kaskus
trs nemu ini, ya mungkin udah banyak yang ngeliat sih tapi gue iseng aja wueheheheh

Dibalik mesin ATM

asal kamu tau..kenapa sih kok mesin ATM bisa ngluarin uang persis dengan yang kita minta gak kurang gak lebih...

terus mesin minuman bisa tau berapa uang yang kita masukan dan keluarlah sekaleng minuman yang seharga dengan uang yang telah kita masukkan..

ini dia sebabnya :

Spoiler for atm:

aaaaaah bosen

2009-06-09T13:54:00.002+07:00

tadi gue udah belajar b.indo via telfon sama chipa
udah belajar geo via telfon sama eca
trs sekarang harusnya belajar kimia
udah belajar sih dikit, tapi gara2 bete parah jadi boseeeen, ngomong2 gue hari ini udah nge post berkali kali ya hemmm hahaha jangan bosennya my dear readers hehehe
enaknya sekarang ngapain ya?
main? ABSOLUTELY YES, but I can't though, my parents would kill me
blogging, twittering, facebook ing? already did that
chatting? that too
aww man, guess I'm gonna hit the hay, but my mom would just wake me up and told me to study
arrrrgh
apa gue belajar tik? ah mau belajar sama siapa, kakak gue bisanya java, gangerti pascal
yah yaudah deh belajar kimia
dadaaaaaaah
(palingan bntar lagi gue ngepost lagi hehe gadeng)

lucky

2009-06-09T12:34:00.003+07:00

you know what
I hate lucky people
they don't deserve what they got
think about it people, and you'll see that it's really not what they've been working on damn lucky people

R:tell me a joke X : the world keeps spinning R : hell yeah

2009-06-09T11:22:00.000+07:00

got this dumb internet connection so gotta type this at wordpad
really in a bad mood today
total bad mood
probably the worst I've ever had in my whole life

"the world keeps spinning"
well I can understand that quote
can parents and teachers understand it?
can even the world itself understand it?
some people are selfish, some people are cocky and love to see everyone else down, some people just got the damn and bang it on someone else, some people just don't understand the other people, some people just LOVE to show off
and can that type of person understand that the world keeps spinning?
the answer's no
they didn't even understand a word about that quote
maybe they can get cocky when they're on the top
but when they're on the bottom?
all they can do is panicking, and make the other people felt more miserable, and they share those miserable feelings to everyone
damn I hate it

night at the museum 2, and my nightmare

2009-06-08T20:32:00.003+07:00

hari ini nonton night at the museum 2, kocak parrrah hahahahahahahahahh
terus sebelum itu ada pengalaman2 asyik dan melelahkan sblmnya
tadinya kan gue hasya fira kita bingung gitu ya, mau nonton apa dan dimana, trs gue ngajakin nanet, dan nanet mau kan
trs kita ke rumah hasya dulu, ganti baju sholat dllll
trs kita sambil nyari2 jadwal, sampai akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk ke GI dan nonton night at the museum 2 pada jam setengah 2
trs gue sama fira blm makan siang, nanet hasya udah pada udah tuh em te hahahaha
trs kita makan di ....................................... hem jujur gue lupa nama restorannya
kita makan disitu gara2 gue dan fira ngiler ngeliat sign nya yang ada makanannya gitu
trs makan deh disitu, jam setengah 2, nanet ngingetin
nanet : 'eh filmnya jam setengah 2 kan?'
gue fira hasya : 'iya, emang sekarang jam?'
nanet : 'udah setengah 2!'
kita ngabisin kentangnya nanet, dan hasya karena onion rings nya gadateng2 jadi minta di take out aja
fira : 'aduh hot chocolate gue gaada rasanya lagi, udah dikasih gula 2 bungkus tetep aja gaada rasanya' (gue nyobain dan itu bener2 gaada rasa omg)
hasya : 'udah take out aja'
hemm ngaco juga ya, mana fira dikasihnya itu 1 cup sama dikasih kayak tekonya gitu, jadi banyaaaaaaaak
trs akhirnya ditinggal juga
daaaaan pas kita mau ke blitz, kita melihat sesuatu yang orang buru2 gamau liat
eskalator berhenti
gara2 buru2 kita ga mikir, main lari aja ke atas, 2 lantai lagi, mana kan tangga eskalator tinggi2, jadi paha tuh beuh pegel parah
dan sampai kita melalui 2 lantai, kita realise, ini kok
beda ya?
kenapa ini gaada jalan kemana2 selain ke parking lot?
dan kita salah jalan
ugh trs kita nyari eskalator lain, dan lagi lagi
eskalatornya berhenti
kita naik dengan sabar
trs kok tempatnya agak aneh juga, untung ada security dan memberitahu ada jalan ke blitz
alhamdulillah
trs kita nonton deh kocak deh hahahahahahah

aaaaaand, saat di perjalanan mau pulang, suddenly, my nightmare just came true
huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa abi texted me and my world's like crashing omg huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu, why chemistry why? huhuhuhu

just woke up

2009-06-08T07:20:00.002+07:00

this is still 07.00
I woke up cus hasya, fira and armedi called me

hasya : 'tih lo ntar ke sekolah gak? ntar jadi yok jalannya yuk yuk'
me : 'ayo banget jadi, eh lo ke sekolahnya jam berapa?'
hasya : 'jam stgh 11an aja kali ya'
me : 'ayok siang aja ya, masih ngantuk'

suddenly fira called with strange number hahaha

fira : 'lo dimana tih? gue udah di sekolah nih, ayo dong ke sekolah gue gaada temen nih, gue datengnya pagi2 lagi'
me : 'ha? gue baru bangun fir maaf ya hehe, lo nelfon berkali kali ya hehe, ntar deh gue dari rumah jam 8'

and Armedi actually called(I was still sleeping atm so I didn't answered hehe) and text me
'tih bangun dong, bentar lagi _______________ nih -_____-'
for the blank spot? yeah no need to know hahahahaha

well thank god they called me, I've just had the worst nightmare houuuuuu please god don't make it happen @_@

thank you aruuuumiii, I love XB too

2009-06-07T20:30:00.004+07:00

HEYHO HEYHO YOU GOTTA SEE THIS
omaijosh it's so sweet, and gave me kinda flashback and I felt somehow happy but sad at a same time, tadinya gue besok gamau masuk tapi kayaknya gue akan masuk aja deh mau main bersama xb
here's Arumi's blogspot
YOU GOTTA SEE THIS ESP XB(and for my readers, here's some proof that I'm strong and have many nick hahahahahaha)

love you all xb

lalala

2009-06-07T19:08:00.002+07:00

heeeeey hari ini gue lari lagi kan di gelora bung karno setelah bertahun tahun gak lari disitu (well not exactly, baru 2 minggu) iya kan gue udah 2 minggu gak lari gara2 sumatif, trs tadi gue lari, daaaaan guess what badan gue jadi lemah, biasanya gue strong sekarang gue jadi lemah, secara gue kl belajar sambil ngemil dan kalian smua tau kl belajar itu hanya duduk/tiduran, jadiiiiiiiii kaki gue tadi sakit pas lari -_-
yah semoga pas liburan gue bisa mengembalikan kondisi badan gue jadi fit seperti semula amiiiin hahahaha
aaaaaaand buat lomba saman sekarang2 ini banyaaaaaaaaaaak banget, gak sekarang2 ini jg sih maksudnya bntar lagi, doain menang yaaaa

this is ratih thank you for reading my own hand-typing

REVIEW

2009-06-05T20:27:00.006+07:00

heeeey so the past 2 weeks I've been studying everyday, and somehow today that thing is done, well not really, still got some remedial to do(bahasa, IT what the hell)
so here's what happened for the last 2 weeks

the perfect companion that makes me go chubbier
aaaand here's the condition of my room while I was studying

HAHAHAHAHA yeah that's the REAL condition, I don't really like to study on a table

and here's something you have never seen before
you know my niece that is just 2 years old and 4 years old? yeah, well you'll never believe it, but once you see this, you better believe it

this is mia, she's 2 years old

and next is mia and karina(she's 4 years old, and taking a ballet class already)

UNBELIAVABLE right? hahahaha see you on the next post

just to confirm

2009-06-04T18:10:00.003+07:00

just wanna confirm that tomorrow I'm gonna make a review of my whole 2 weeks of studying, you guys looking forward to it? hahahaha, you'll see some stuffs you have never seen before tomorrow, it'll be full of pictures hahahaha, so one more day to go! and tomorrow I'm gonna watch some movies with my friends after school wheeeheeeeyyy

for debby, (kode B)

2009-06-04T17:20:00.003+07:00

for debby, (kode A)

2009-06-04T17:06:00.001+07:00

kl ada yang kepotong dikit maaf ya deb hehe

yeah, so far so good

2009-06-03T16:52:00.003+07:00

just this afternoon I got my some of results for my sumative, it's biology, physics, and deutsch, so far so good heheh, I got 77 for biology(passed), 82,9 for physics(passed), and 91,2 for deutsch(passed) hehe, aww tomorrow's chemistry, wish it won't be that hard amiiiiiiiiiin, 2 more days to go!!!!!

ternyata

2009-06-02T17:00:00.001+07:00

perhatiin deh, makin gue sumatif gue malah makin sering nge post iya gak sih? hahaha, emang sih gue kl belajar dan pengen nilainya bagus(amiiiin) malah biasanya makin nyempetin waktu buat main hahahahahaha, jadi yah maklumilah sifat gue ya wakakakakak

quick update (3)

2009-06-02T15:12:00.005+07:00

heyho
tomorrow's examination is English and History
as usual I got the sneak peek for the History's test, so I can relax and maybe later I'll study some chemistry for Thursday
still, wish me a good luck! 3 more days!!!!!!

Happy birthday dad

2009-06-01T16:21:00.004+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DAAAAAAD
wish you will be a better and greater dad for me, my brother and my sister, great husband for mom, and great grandpa for karina and amia hehe, love you dad:)

well..................

2009-06-01T11:59:00.005+07:00

today is physics and P.E.
for the P.E. test is very easy, they took it from our LKS
in just like 10 minutes, I can lay down and slept
but suddenly I felt, like a bit emotional, crackin, hurt, backstabbed, feel like this whole world is unfair, feels like everything is unfair, all at the same time, can you imagined it? very uncomfort heart feelings
even though I've always remember that Allah is very fair, but still.. I felt like cracken up
but it's the only concept I can hold on to right now
Allah itu adil kok :)
gue yakin suatu saat nanti (yang entah kapan) keadilan bakal berpihak ke gue, ke orang yang udah usaha keras dan dalam waktu yang lama

by the way sorry for the melancholy thing
never got bored reading my blog dear viewers :)
just remember,
Allah itu adil kok :)

perjanjian dengan arumi

2009-05-30T19:02:00.002+07:00

seharian ini belajar, main sama keponakan, pergi ke giant
trs abis ini mau belajar lagi, trs tadi siang by phone gue dan arum berjanji bakal usaha dan belajar sekeras mungkin biar sumatif gaada yang remed amiiiiiiin, jadi pas minggu remed, kita tinggal ngeceng di sekolah, nonton dvd di kelas, menikmati hidup sebagai kelas X hihi
AYO RUM KITA PASTI BISA GAADA YANG REMED OKE RUM

5 days to go

2009-05-29T18:29:00.002+07:00

so today is friday, you know the thing called TGIF right? well that won't happen now, for me
cause the next monday I'll still be having my sumative test, talk about minority in bed time
biology is done, I'll face maths, physics, and chemistry next week
I'll study hard for that one of course
lalalalala today I slept for 4 hours hahaha, assuming that to pay the minor bed time for the last 2 days hahaha

economy

2009-05-28T20:05:00.002+07:00

economy, ugh I hate those materials so much
it's too hard for me
wish I can get it done by tonight and get a good score by tomorrow
and Germany? haven't even started yet
ugh I really don't know what to do now
wish me luck for tomorrow

sumatif wuaaaaa

2009-05-26T18:49:00.002+07:00

ayoayoayo sebentar lagi gue sumatif loh
tinggal 2 hari lagi hingga gue sumatif
you know what it means?
goodbye internet for 2 weeks
goodbye blog for 2 weeks

doain yaaaa biar nilai gue tuntas semua, trs gak cuman tuntas tapi nilainya bisa tinggi dan bagus, trs bisa masuk ipa amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin

quick update (2)

2009-05-26T18:47:00.000+07:00

I hate my brother so bad
he is so selfish, arrogant, awful, obnoxius grrrr hate him

great mom

2009-05-24T18:20:00.002+07:00

right now I'm making the presentation, which I hate
and I need to get it done fast
and my mother asked me
mom(M) : 'mau makan kapan?'
me(R) : 'nanti deh ya ini presentasinya belom selesai'
M : 'di ambilin aja ya makanannya'
R : 'nggak usah gapapa'

dan dengan baik nya nyokap masuk2 udah membawakan piring berisikan nasi dan ikan asam manis dan segelas air putih
awww I love you mom, you're the greatest mom ever
dia tau gue sedang sibuk, jadi dia ambilin makanannya :)
love you mom

ecology

2009-05-24T17:12:00.000+07:00

kenapa ekologi banyak banget sih ngeselin deh, 1 bab gue kerjain sndiri sial kenapa gue bilang iya pas disuruh bikin yang ekologi
aaaaaaaargggggh wasting time

quick update

2009-05-24T16:18:00.003+07:00

I'm too lazy to do the biology assignment
I have to make a presentation for 1 full material, damn and I haven't even started yet and my brother's being so annoying about me using the computer in my house to do this assignment(maybe he's the one who bought the computer but still he's not the one who pay the internet hello)
if he gave the damn for me to use his computer its okay, but not the internet jerk it's not yours!

lalala right now I become a big fan of yogurt. it just tasted so great, sour but tasty yummmmm

arrgggh ecology ecology ecology puaaaaaaaah, can't stand it, I just hate assignments
it didn't help me to study, just a waste of time duh?
I can use my time doing assignments to study many materials, and grab some rest, get myself ready for the sumative test, but this? this is completely useless
why should teachers give us assignments when all we do is copy paste-ing?

and now my dad became such a pain in the #*%, he thought that I never study and he's always curious when I'm in front of my computer
can't he just at least trust me for 1 second? I bet he can't

grr gotta do this damned assignments soon and get my butt back to studying
ta-ta for now

penyemprotan and my love for xb

2009-05-24T10:21:00.004+07:00

barusan rumah gue disemprot demam berdarah
baunya gaenak
tapi bagus sih, soalnya katanya tetangga yang rumahnya deket bgt sama rumah gue gitu kena demam berdarah, jadi daripada gue/keluarga ikutan kena mnding disemprot iya gak?
lalalalala bokap nyokap lagi pergi, so I'm kinda free, but not for long
after they're home, I'm outta the world
still wish me luck for my sumative exam huhuhu, please wish me luck pleaaaseee
and just yesterday I thought that, xb will last, no longer than 1 month
huaaaaaaaaaaa padahal baru merasa nyaman sama xb tuh beberapa bulan yang lalu
trs mau pisah lagi sekarang
can't the time just slow down a little bit? no, It can't
I love you xb, wish we can still be best friends even though our class at the 11th grade is seperated
promise we will not forget each other yaaaa :')
there will be no bye bye for us, we'll always be together in our hearts :)
love, ratih

20:28

2009-05-23T20:27:00.004+07:00

now is 20:28 o' clock
just chattin, sign in my facebook, edit my playlist at mixpod.com, and doin nothin
hmm well my mother told me to study now
well I want to study too but
you know the lazy thing when you're already in front of ur computer with the internet and stuffs rite?
lalalalalala, hahaha check out my chat with putri hahaahahah

Putri says:
kan lg heboh jadi2an
jd ratih juga dumz harusnya

ratih 'walnut' siahaan says:
hahahaahaha sama siapa

Putri says:
sama tembok

ratih 'walnut' siahaan says:
-_-
abis sumatif pengen jadian aaah
HAHAHAAHHAHA SAMA SIAPAA LAGI

Putri says:
sama ** ***** aja

tau gak ** ***** tuh siapa? HAHAHAHAH peace out ya ** *****
rada bego ya chat nya hahahah

yeah my mother is really and totally mad at me right now
she's mad as a hatter hemmmmm
but I still wanna stay in front of my computer huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa -_______-
can't the sumative test got postponed or something pleaaaseeeeeeee
huhuhuhuhu
gotta study, bye huhuhuhuhuhu T.T

sorry

2009-05-23T19:10:00.004+07:00

teman teman maaf ya hari ini gue gabisa dateng huhu gaboleh soalnya maaf yaaaa
maaf banget bangetan terutama buat della yang jadi muter muter sendiri gara2 gaada gue
maaf ya deeel don't be angry yaaaaa

blog features update

2009-05-21T18:31:00.002+07:00

hey
I figured out that my blog's feature is kinda boring
so I added a comment box, edit the header
but most importantly, I changed my blog's name
I change it from 'just an ordinary life' to 'my own hand-typing'
well I change it because I realized that, no life is ordinary, rite?
every people's life is so full of many amazing things, love and affections, impressions, happiness, sadness sometimes, ups and downs and many other things

and the reason I named it my own hand-typing?
because in blog, we type, we didn't write it with our hand hahahaha zonk

well actually because when something in my life happens, I typed it in this blog, my life, my own life
so I decided to name it my own hand-typing
lalala whatev haha

but still the url is just a random stuffs in my head, I mean, hello roastedweenies?
hahaha got no reason why I named the url roastedweenies lalala whatev

still haven't done studying maths and economy, and still haven't practice piano, yeah just go with the flow
byeeee, wish me luck for tomorrow

another post for today

2009-05-21T17:17:00.002+07:00

hey (again)
it's raining now, and I'm still studying economy
and my father just reminded me that I should practice my piano cause tomorrow I have a piano course, and I haven't done studying yet, man when should I practice piano?????
I can't play piano in midnight rite?
well maybe I'll practice in midnight lalala who cares

one day holiday

2009-05-21T16:09:00.002+07:00

hey folks
before I talk about anything else, I wanna say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARMEDI, wish you can make your parents proud of you, and wish you all the best bro

so today is holiday, tomorrow I'm going to have a maths and economy's formative test
boy I don't understand single thing from economy
why economy is so hard? same as geography
man I'm the worst at geography

well lalala I'm takin a break from studying maths (haven't studied economy yet, too lazy hehe)
and I take this quiz which I saw from Kak Serra's blog, you've got a great blog sis hehe
and here's the results

What others see from your style

Although to the untrained eye you may seem like a plain dresser who avoids trends, you actually wear carefully designed accessories and clothes that emphasize your uniqueness. You value your freedom and have an artistic mind. You are neither aggressive nor timid, but you believe in yourself.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.

What others see from your belts

If there's not a single belt in your wardrobe, you like freedom and are opposed to all kinds of rules. You are creative and very good at work that requires you to stretch your imagination. Your main downfall, however, is that you can be very moody.

What others see from your shoes

You are kind and open-minded. You may not be talkative, but you are friendly and enjoy the company of intelligent people. You always keep the secrets of others, and never play tricks on people.

What others see from your earrings

You are a hardworking people. You are serious and capable. You know what you want out of life, and you go after it.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

okay so long then, gotta continue studying maths and study economy later(which I don't really want to lol)
I like maths better than economy though
but I'm a student what else I can do? haha
bye

happy birthday my niece

2009-05-18T16:21:00.003+07:00

HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY MY NIECE AMIA KIRANA SATRIA
semoga mia tambah cantik, tambah pinter ngocehnya, jadi nggak takut lagi sama orang, nggak cengeng, nurut sama orang tua, sehat selalu dan panjang umur yaaaa

amia adalah keponakan gue, dia hari ini tepat berumur 2 tahun loooooh
hihihi
yaudah sih cmn mau wishing wishing doang hari ini
nothing special at school though hehe

bye

the decision I made was

2009-05-17T10:09:00.003+07:00

hai kawan
akhirnya saya memutuskan
...................................................................................................
not to go

well I don't know how to say it but I really can't disobey my mom
yeah
totally
I felt so guilty though
but there's one decision that I need to take
and this is it
stop talking about it you people you're making me feel guilty and guiltier, stop talking about it, stop it

bye

belajar menentukan pilihan

2009-05-17T07:19:00.003+07:00

hari ini saya seharusnya ke sumantri bojonegoro, tapi saya tidak tahu, saya baru tahu tadi pagi karena ditelfon arum, sebenarnya masih sempat, tapi saya malas hmm
saya juga seharusnya ke gelora bung karno pintu 7 nanti jam 10.30
tapi saya sudah tidak diizinkan lagi oleh orang tua saya untuk mengikuti kegiatan lain selain belajar hinggal sumatif dan remed berakhir
sekarang saya bingung
will I disobey my parents? absolutely not
will I disobey my friends and my senior? well I don't want that either
so now the desicion I need to make is go or not go
maybe for you go or not go is simple
but for my case, it's a big step, a total big step
if I choose go, my parents will become very mad, and I'm afraid I will be 'kualat' and
if I choose not to go, my friends will possibly be angry at me, I will feel totally guilty to my senior and also my friends, whoaah god what should I do
I need to make this desicion in less than 3 hours
but I have to pick one of those situation, rite?
if you were me, which one will you take?
well I will tell you which desicion I make on the next post, it will be posted in the next 3 hours k?
please god help me with this trouble

today

2009-05-15T20:13:00.003+07:00

well umm today is just a usual day
but I'm very happy because my economy teacher postpone the formative test which I haven't studied for hihi:)
last night I just open my economy book and start day dreaming, then, fell asleep till tomorrow morning
and when I arrived at school, I didn't study either haha
so guess I'm a bit lucky today
hmm school was cool
many teachers didn't come to my class today and it was fun

and now I'm sitting right in front of my computer(well not exactly mine, it's my brother's but who cares) twittering, facebook-ing, chatting via msn

well I feel so so today as you can see from my writting
well aopfkpeokfpekfposdjigpoiserjogerjogirj
don't know what to write,
but I really want to write something though
dunno what to type

oh I know
today Mr. Wangsa came to my class and talk about universities and stuffs
and somehow I felt like I'm in the XII grade already hm
he talks about how scores affects the university that will accept you
the scores come from our report in 11th grade and 12th grade first semester and also the tryouts in the 12th grade
he actually asked me which university I want to go to
and well, there are many universities that I want to go to, NTU, NUS, MIT, ITB, UI, harvard(big dream isn't a bad thing you now), stanford(keep dreaming), and many more
and the major? hemm electro, industry, machine, telecomunication, and many technic stuffs
I don't really like memorizing words so errr, yeah you get it right? I don't really want to take laws, or acountancy and stuffs. It's very hard for me hem

well wish me the best k?

that's all I gotta say for now, bubbbyeeeee

last day of holiday

2009-05-13T10:56:00.002+07:00

hellooo
so today is the last day of my holiday hmm
I was kinda not ready for school
I haven't studied much aaaaaaaaaargggh
really want to study but the materials to be studied is too much aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggh
I really hate this situation grr

so 3 days ago I went to gelora bung karno to jog with my parents
and there I saw a really tall 'ontel' bike
a man that rode it wore a witch costume and somehow when I saw them, I really wanna see them fall hm hahaha

and today I jogged again,
but not at gelora bung karno I jogged at the jalur hijau tebet
somehow I felt tired, so I only jogged for 2 1/2 lap
so I sat and waited for my parents
and there were group of people(men and women) sit right next to me
they start gossiping about EVERYTHING
starts from politics, kids, language, manohara(WHAT THE?)

well it was kinda awkward but fun to heard them stories
my minds more open now(well not really yeah whatev)
and now I'm here getting confused of what to study now
but I know I WILL study
yeah I will
yeah
hmmmm
well maybe just for a couple hours
though I really want to go shopping for clothes
but well this is the life of SMAN 8 student bla bla bla, life's hard (not really, I'm exaggerating haha)
but its true though
wish me luck for my exam in 3 weeks okay
so long!

demam rubik

2009-05-08T19:13:00.004+07:00

haaaai
lama sekali tidak nge post
jadi AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
hahaha
mau cerita
sekarang di SMA 8 lagi pada demam rubik
rubik itu apa sih? udah pada tau dong, atau mungkin tau tapi gatau namanya? buat yang ga tau rubik itu yang kayak gini nih

nah tau kan? masa gatau sih
iya trs kan pas pertama kali gue main gue belajar pelan2 tuh bikin satu sisi yang sama
pas udah tau caranya girang gitu

trs ada yg lebih menantang, yaitu bikin semua sisinya sama warna
trs ada rumusnya gitu
rumusnya
kanan : U R Ui Ri Ui Fi U F
kiri : Ui Li U L U F Ui Fi
cross : F R U Ri Ui Fi
kanan blkg : R U Ri U R U U Ri
kanan atas : U R Ui Li U Ri Ui L
hahaha yang gamaen rubik pasti gangerti wakaka

terus gue udah bisa looooh bikin smua sisinya sama!!!! yieeeey
thanks to many people yang udah dengan sabar nya ngajarin gue hehe

yah sekian post kali ini
bubbyeeeeee

liburan

2009-04-26T01:05:00.004+07:00

halo udah lama ya nggak ngepost
jadi sbnrnya banyak banget hal yang mau gue ceritain beserta fotonya
tapi lagi males masukin foto ke komputer
jadi gausah pake foto dulu ya
gue ceritanya dari hari ini ke belakang ya

hari ini gue pagi2 udah dibangunin, jam 6 berangkat ke gelora bung karno
olahraga ceritanya
kan gue naik sepeda 2 puteran, 1 puteran lari
pas gue naik sepeda, ada tuh cina pecicilan banget gitu
udah gitu dia mau sok keren gitu, tau palang polisi gitu kan? dia udah ambil anceng2 udah sok2an mau meloncati pager itu ceritanya, dan dia jatoh hahahahhaahh gue puas gitu ngeliatnya hahaha abis sok banget
trs abis itu latian yapong di sekolah, gue dateng jam 10, daaaan ngaret 1 stgh jam, dan tadinya gue sndirian(kesian ya hidup gue hahaha)
trs udah mulai kan tuh, trs tiba2 datang abang jampang(yg gatau darimana asalnya) ya begitu mereka silat2 gitu kan gerakannya
capek gitu sampe jam 3, selesai hari ini

kemaren gue latian dramus di rumah hasya, gue nya udah dateng telat, trashing lagi disana hahaha. cmn main gitar, foto2 pake SLR april, norak dengan kipas lidya(gaboong kipasnya keren! hahaha), trs main sepeda
dan pas naik sepeda, gue berkali2 diklaksonin mobil hahahaha, trs dengan jahatnya arum malah ketawa2 -_-

hari kamis gue lupa gue ngapain

rabu juga lupa

selasa latian dramus juga kan, tapi di rumah dila(bekasi, jauh abis)
trs kan pulangnya bingung, karena rumah gue dan icha deket, jadi kita barengan, echa jg mau ikut sampe sekolah
nah icha mobilnya lagi di bengkel, trs kita memutuskan ke gramedia matraman
disana ngeliat buku2, icha beli buku fisika, echa gue lupa beli apa, trs gue cmn liat2 karena gue gak begitu suka baca novel dan sejenisnya
trs echa pulang, dan mobilnya icha masih di bengkel
trs gue dan icha memutuskan untuk ke bagian stationary, kita norak banget kayak gapernah liat alat tulis hahahaha, seru banget tapi, gue beli banyak haha
trs pas jalan ngeliat2 gitu, gue dan icha ngeliat spot dimana itu isinya mainan anak kecil smua
trs naluri 2 anak kelahiran 1994 ini keluar, kita bahagia banget main2in mainan itu
trs mencet2 manian kasir2an itu
trs ada mainan so sweet banget gitu, kesannya memorable gitu mainan waktu masih kecil gitu loh yang bunyi2 doang
gitu deh
trs nemu laptop mainan dora gitu, tadinya dikira ga nyala, pas gue pencet eh nyala, kami pun kembali bahagia hahaha
dan akhirnya pulang deh

trs hari sabtu 2 minggu lalu kl ga salah, gue ngejenguk ponakan gue ke rumahnya di bintaro, dia sakit flu singapur itu(flu singapur bukan bersin2 ya, tolong diperhatikan) jd sariawan banyak gitu, trs di kaki juga bentol gitu kesian deh dia jadi lemes gitu
dan nyokap gue kan ngebeliin baju buat kedua ponakan gue
namanya baju kelelawar(gue baru denger, kocak deh bntuknya, ntar gue upload deh)

yah kayaknya sekian adventure gue, ntar kl sempet foto2 dari kegiatan gue ini gue post deh
byeeeeeeeeee

quick post

2009-04-19T11:07:00.001+07:00

hei
gue di buru2 nyokap nih disuruh pergi ke rumah ponakan gue
tapi gue maleeeeeeees banget buat mandi
trs skrg gue lagi dimarah2in disuruh cepet2 gt
trs gue males banget
jadi gue sempetin buat ngepost bntar
jadi gue hari ini bangun jam 6 kurang hanya untuk solat subuh, terus tidur lagi hingga jam 10
trs bangun2 gue langsung ke komputer dan ol sambil buka facebook
dan sekarang nyokap gue udah marah2 lagi dan bawa bawa 'giliran ama temen kamu, kamu buru2'
trs dalam hati gue 'apa banget deh, kl latian kan emang ada urusan, ditungguin orang, nah kl mau ke rumah ponakan, gaada yang nungguin juga kan? apaan banget sih grr'
ingin rasanya bilang kayak gitu tapi males kl nyokap gue tambah nyemprot gue, urusannya panjang trs lama2 merembet ke urusan temen lah, nilai lah, malesin deh berurusan ama nyokap gue
yaudah segini dulu ya, nyokap udah bolak balik jungkir balik(?) manggilin gue
nanti gue lanjutin oke byeeeeeeeeeeeee

short post f*toooooot

2009-04-18T22:06:00.003+07:00

gue baru ngepost beberapa menit yang lalu
trs sesuatu terjadi dan itu nyebelin
jadi tadi tiba2 lampu rumah gue mati, emg suka gitu kl overloaded apa gimana gitu gangerti gue
terus caranya msti dinyalain dari yang panel pln itu yang terletak di luar pintu rumah gue
kan sekarang itu pukul 9.51 ya
kan udah gelap
serem kan, mana msti keluar rumah
trs kan gue manggil2 kakak gue karena kakak gue lagi ada di ruang tamu yang deket sm pintu buat keluar
gue udah minta tolong dia buat nyalain dari luar kan
dia GAMAU dan dia bilang 'bentar2' SAMBIL ASIK2AN NELFON2AN SAMA PACARNYA
trs gue manggil2 nyokap gue katanya suruh bokap gue
gue manggil2 bokap gue katanya suruh kakak gue
gue suruh kakak gue DIA MASIH GAMAU JUGA
dan akhirnya lo msti tau GUE YANG KELUAR GELAP2AN BUAT NYALAIN TU PANEL

YANG COWOK DI RUMAH GUE TUH SIAPA??????????????
GAADA COWOK DI RUMAH GUE!!!!!!!!!!
KAKAK GUE KAYAK *#% (efek suara : toooooooooooooooooot)

LIBUUUUR

2009-04-18T21:25:00.004+07:00

heeeeeeeeeey
guess what guess what guess what?
TODAY IS THE 1ST DAY OF HOLIDAY YIPPIEEEE

iya terus tadinya hari ini latian, tp ternyata yang yapong libur, trs jadi gue bersantai dirumah

muthi nyapa gue gitu pas gue ol kan, trs dia nanyain 'hari ini ngambil formulir afs nya jadi kan?' trs jujur pas baca gue agak males ehehehe, soalnya kan baru libur trs agak2 males keluar rumah untuk sesuatu yang tidak menghibur trs nanet kan jg gabisa gara2 ngerjain undangan mesis jadi gue dan nanet memutuskan buat ngambilnya besok aja hehe maaf ya muth

naaaah trs mutia rizki(beda orang sm yg diatas) nyapa gue, dia ngajakin ke rumahnya somehow gue semangat banget soalnya itu hal yang menghibur abis itu ina jg sms gue, ngajakin gue sm mutia nonton kan yaudah, bahagia lah hari gue

terus kita nonton bersama, yaitu gue mutia ina ayu sm tata urutan duduknya dari kiri : ina-mutia-gue-ayu-tata, ditengah tuh gue kita nonton KNOWING

KEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN
itu gaboong keren abis kode2nya BEEEEEEEH trs yang terakhir itu bener2 kayak kiamat gila, gue selama filmnya nganga mulu gak mingkem gila parah keren abis
worth watching banget
udah gitu tadi kan pas akhir2 film gitu, ada anaknya dia harus berpisah sama ayahnya gara2 dia terpilih buat start over dunia yang akan hancur sama abbie trs kan sedih gitu ya, tp tadinya gue biasa aja eeeeeeeeh si mutia nangis trs dia mempengaruhi gue gitu 'kok gak sedih sih? parah banget, coba lo bayangin kalo lo di posisi dia' mutia nangisnya tp sambil ketawa gitu trs gue tiba2 jadi mikir, gue jg jadi nangis sambil ketawa deh trs gara2 gue nangis, ayu jadi ikutan mikir 'o iya bener juga' trs jadi nangis gitu, jadi intinya nangis berantai yang sumbernya dari MUTIA RIZKI, maaci mutia yang udah membuat kita kayak orang gila nangis sambil ketawa hahahahahah yah hari yang bahagia, untuk hari pertama ilburan gue memilih nonton knowing yang keren banget banget pol polan daripada ngambil formulir afs yang gak menghibur sama sekali dan paling abis ngambil gue SUPER boring lagi di rumah,
gue memilih pilihan yang tepat bukan kawan kawanku?

wednesday, fun day

2009-04-15T18:35:00.003+07:00

haaaaaai
hari ini banyak pelajaran kosong
yaiyalah hari rabu gitu
isinya sinematografi, seni musik dan kawan kawan
oh iya gue turut sedih sama frau eka, guru bahasa jerman gue
kasihan dia, dia harusnya tuh masih bedrest tapi dia tetep mau ngajar
trs pas pagi2nya dia ngajar kan kelas lain, eh pas pelajaran terakhir mau ngajar xb, kondisinya langsung drop gitu
udah sekitar 2 atau 3 kali kayak begini
ada apa dengan kelas xb, kesannya begitu frau eka mau ngajar xb langsung jadi sakit gitu hahaha, tapi sedikit bersyukur karena kelas gue gajadi listening jerman....... jahat sih, maaf ya frau hehe
get well soon frau ekaaa

trs tadi pas sinematografi gue buka nguping jakarta
trs menemukan line yang sangat bodoh seperti ini :
Penjaga rental PS: "X, kamu liat kucing hitam warna putih gak?"

or

Cewek: (sambil membuka album foto tua) "Ih, ini kan foto kawinan bokap nyokap gua!"
Sepupu: "Ih iya, ada gua juga lho disini, ya ampun masih kecil banget... (hening lama, sambil membalik-balik halaman)... Loe-nya kemana sih, kok dari tadi gua liat gak ada di foto-foto kawinan bo-nyok loe?"

or this one
this one is my favourite hahahahah

Cowok #1: "Iya, jadi dulu gue pernah jatuh dari lantai 7..."

Cowok #2: "Ooh, terus loe mati nggak?"

bego ya? hahahaahaha
that's all, see ya folks
byeeeeeeeee

FUN BASKETBALL WITH XB GIRLS

2009-04-14T20:46:00.004+07:00

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey
hari ini adalah hari yang menyenangkan
but first I wanted to say
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DIANAAAAA
diana tuh baiiiiiiiik banget sabar bijaksana

oke lanjut
hari ini pas pelajaran olahraga, pas awal2nya males2 gitu basket abisnya rada gapenting gitu
tapiii abis selesai masih ada sisa waktu banyak, cewek2 disuruh main basket sama gurunya
trs tadi kita suit gitu, ada kelompok menang dan kalah
kebetulan gue sekelompok sama nisa yang jago maennya wakakakak
trs biarpun begitu, tadi itu SERUUUUUUUUUUUUU banget
tadi tuh biar terpisah kelompoknya tuh berasa banget nyatu nya cewek2 xb
itu seru banget tereak2 gitu(biasa lah cewek2 kl pada maen basket gimana sih, hebohan tereaknya daripada maennya hahaha)
icha tadi menguasai permainan, jago banget mencuri bola nya
tadinya kan gue mau ngeshoot gitu, sepenglihatan gue icha tuh jaraknya jauh dari gue
pas gue mau ngeshoot, eh tiba2 icha nepok bolanya hebat ya lari nya
trs dikit2 bolanya tuh ada di icha ampun deh
trs icha kan megang bolanya, trs biasa cewek maennya main direbut aja bolanya, nah icha tuh mempertahankan banget, udah ditarik2 bolanya dia ttp gamau ngelepasin, jadinya dia KESERET-SERET DUA KALI lagi
trs tadi gue kan dapet bola, trs dengan memalukannya, gue malah lari ke ring gue sndiri, untung bolanya direbut -_- malu juga gue
hahahahaha
natali tadi hebooooh banget, trs pas natali dapet bola, dia tereak2 kayak abis menang piala oscar HAHAHAHAHA natali gaboong kocak abis hahahhaah
cewek2 xb tadi nyatu banget deh seru seru

pokoknya xb abis dramus main basket kayak tadi lagi ya, gaboong seru banget hahahaha
love you all xoxo
byeeeeeeeeeeee

pain

2009-04-04T18:18:00.003+07:00

okay
back to bad mood
I just can't understand how life can be so harsh to me
and there's always a time when I have nowhere to go, so I have to come back home and face the reality that my life is such a wuss
I've never win an important competition, stressed out with all those test and scores and everything, tired of this kind of life
I rarely have a dream when I'm sleeping, so it's pretty impossible to wish to have a beautiful life with everyone that loves me in even just a dream when I'm sleeping

pain
yeah
that's what I'm feeling right now
can't understand why all these thing happened

bye

BBM preparation

2009-04-03T19:48:00.002+07:00

heeeeeeeey folks
welcome to roastedweenies.blogspot.com
okay so tomorrow is the bazar budaya masyarakat day in my school
and my class has such a minim preparation
but we've worked hard though
and my skirt just has white paint all over it -_- (FOR BBM!!!)

my stock of random pictures just ran out, and I haven't look for the new ones, hehe

so see yaaa
byeeeeeee